Floods of Many

so, a quick recap, pertaining to the word "flood":

life is pretty miserable for me here in Woodstock. the friends i made have already seemed to forgotten me, except Okie. he still greets me with some modicum of enthusiasm. so, i've been flooded with depression and lots of anger and a bitch load of apathy; i'm no where near Ashton and Olivia.

i'm also flooded and overwhelmed by the new school schedule. i have 1hr classes now, and it keeps freaking me out. i'm so used to 1.5hr classes, and i hate this whole having to do all your homework for each class every night. at NAHS, you can do home work for one class every other night, according to your scheduling. so much easier.

and i keep floating by. my mind is telling me that this is real, that i'm not going back to NAHS anytime soon, but it hasn't really registered yet. i'm not looking forward to when it does, either.

and, in the physical sense, turns out that it's been raining forever down in Atlanta, and now my friends' houses are flooded. and i'm not there to help. Kelly, Cody, Olivia....their houses are flooded and i can only assume that means the majority of those i know down there are as well.

anyways, so, life is pretty miserable. i have an analogy for you, but i've decided to write it as a poem. so maybe that'll be written/posted soon-ish.

also! dunno if i told you this, but i have a deviantART up! so check it out:

http://the-oxyg.deviantart.com/

ta, for now
-The OxyG

Woodstock, Illinois = WTF

so...no offense to all my new friends, but Woodstock, IL is a dinky little piece of crap. srsly. at least compared to Atlanta.

anyways, so, i have been moved up to Woodstock, and my mother is getting remarried, and I am warming up to living here as long as i get to stay out of the house most of the time. i'm not happy about being moved here....but i'm happy even tho i'm here, because of my friends. does that makes sense? no? go fuck yourself.

weather report: i feel like i should be out trick or treating. this shit is GAY - strike that. it's so uncool that it's fucking heterosexual. LOL. but oh my dark lord, i swear, it feels like October/November does in ATL.

on another topic, 9 and Alice in Wonderland look like the SHIT. of course, anything with even just Tim Burton's pinky toe in it has some level of amazingness to it. xD and Alan Rickman as the Caterpillar?! -head esplodes- like WOW. the Cheshire Cat is gonna have a bitching voice. Stephen Fry does the vocals....so i'm thinking a very British and snarky version of "Amercan McGee's Alice" sorta Chesh. and OF COURSE, Johnny Depp will be AMAZING as the Mad Hatter. and Helena Bonham Carter! WOOT WOOT!

hummmmm....OH! i have Glass/Metal/Jewelry Art (GMJArt for short) and Drawing/Printmaking Art (Drawing for short, lol) classes with two awesome art teachers.....both at the very end of the day.

and speaking of end of the day, i feel so weird having all my classes everyday. cos NAHS has A Day and B Day, and so you have 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, and 1B, 2B, 3B, 4B classes....switching every other day. it feels WEIRD to have 8 classes a day again. O_O

anywhoozizzle.....RAMBLING. like i usually do.

....god i'm fucking cold. >.< i need mah friends to cuddle me to warmth! and to close the window. lol

MAH HURRRRR (my hair)

check it out biznitches! my blonde hair! :D total awesomeness, right? and my hair doesn't feel very damaged, but i do plan on taking good care of it. xD

i'll be cutting it soon, and styling it differently. perhaps somewhere down the line i'll add some other colors, like pink and blue. idk. maybe purple!

anywhoozle...

BLONDE BABY!

so, HELLZ YES! i died my hair blonde (ish). :D it's actually this really pretty tawny color, with brown roots! :B does make me happy. i'll post a blog later with a pic - too lazy to do it now.

but DAYUM. that shit will sting your eyes and nose and you will NEVER forget what that fucking smells like! like, *shudders* my eyes are still stinging...but hey, the things we do to hide. :P

anywhoozle, gonna check in with the rest of my people :D

moving times

so, once again, we are moving. *sighs and rubs temples* ever since we moved out of WC we've moved every summer. *head desk* why can't we just settle down in a house - with a basement? cos damn i love me a vampire lair. LOL.

but, mom has given me slight motivation. if we haul ass then i'll get money and/or a party....hopefully "and" lol. so that would be pretty bitching. especially if i can get this hairdye thing to work. cross your fingers and hope for blonde, not orange! lol

anyways, i'm bored OUT. OF. MY. MIND. at least i can use the "get the fuck outta the house" time to gather up unwanted clothes and shit and sell them....doesn't Plato buy clothes? you know, Plato, the teen thrift store? anyways....yeah

I got my mad rad hair!!!!

so, i'm on the prowl for platinum blonde hair dye. :D it's gonna be bitchin'. i'm still gonna see if i can convince my mom to let me do the roots...*rolls eyes* just because i wanna do it once doesn't mean i want to dye the roots everytime. i know it's not healthy, but this once isn't gonna hurt. i'm not going to dye my hair platinum blonde everyday. i just want it blonde all the way, and then have other colors within it. then straighten and trim/cut, then add hairspray and BAM! scene hair. :B

anyways, yes, looking to do my hair blonde. it'll be a drag if i have to have my roots stay brown. *sighs*

so, also thinking about what clothes, toys, etc. i can sell for some money. i need some new clothes. *ponders*

anywhoozizzle, ttyl

REiNVENT MYSELF

xD so, as you can see, EVERYTHING is getting changed on the blog. still a work in progress.

but i'm configuring it to my newfound sense of belonging.

cos used to, i didn't really have anywhere to belong, looks wise or personality wise. i'm a little preppy, emo, goth, hippie, ghetto, punk, girly, tomboy....i'm a little of everything. AND I FOUND WHERE I BELONG!

scene kids - they are everything rolled into one, and i finally have a sense of belonging. we stick out in the crowd, even with each other, and i like that. but we have core elements that become the typical stereotypes that classifies us as scene, and i LOVE that.

anyways, i'm thinking about gathering up all my old stuff that i don't want/need/feel right in anymore and selling it. then i can maybe go buy a new wardrobe of things that fit me. :B

luv ya bitches.

-Chinah

:O The Umbrella Academy as a show on Cartoon Network? In my dreams - LITERALLY!

so as the title suggests, i did indeed have a dream where Gerard Way's "The Umbrella Academy" was to be a show on Cartoon Network. of course, i immediately thought, "well, that's stupid. if i was Gerard, Cartoon Network would be the last station i'd allow to have my ideas, since they rejected the Breakfast Monkey!" LOL. i'm so weird that my dreams reflect my actions on a nightly basis. this has gotta be the 5th or 6th MCR related dream i've had in the past few months. lawlz

Can You Feel This?

so, i've fallen victim to Blood On The Dance Floor, or BOTDF for short, which is a scene band consisting of two guys, Dahvie Vanity and Garrett Ecstasy. :3 i love them, and one of my absolute favorite songs by them is "Save The Rave".

and the song elicited feeling from me that i can't tell you because Ashton said i can't ever say them again. -_-' so, i'm going to have to revert to a diary again. i probably should've never made this.....1) no one reads it, and 2) the few that drop in now and then feel the need to direct people i don't want reading this here. *glares*

so....expect even fewer blog entries. :(

so, anyways, let me get you the lyrics to "Save The Rave":

Music is my drug
Music is my love
Music is my favorite drug
Music is my only love

Music is my favorite drug
Music I've fallen in love

Music is my favorite drug
Music I've fallen in love
I got my milkshake
And I'm doing real well
Can't you tell! can't you tell!
Cuz I'm texting on my cell
Cuz I ahhhh ahhhhh
And your blahhh blahhh
Cuz I'm restitched
Remixed!
You can talk
You stupid tricks
You're the ones
Who'll buy my shit
Snap! snap! make this club clap

Dear mate to the soul
I've lost control
I'm breaking the scene
And this stupid routine
I've taken the pills
Giving in to thrills
Save the rave
Gotta dance the pain away!

I fell in love with the girl
At the dance club
She said what! as I'm kicking
Up the party drugs
She's so rad with her
Pin up stilettos
Pop lock
Bodies rock
Turn up
That speaker box
Bang! bang! dannng
Shoot em up
Shoot up this place
I'm with this
This sickness
So fictitious

Can you feel this?
Can you feel this?

Dear mate to the soul
I've lost control
I'm breaking the scene
And this stupid routine
I've taken the pills
Giving in to thrills
Save the rave
Gotta dance the pain away!

Ahhh, aaahhhhhh

We gotta dance
Dance the pain away
We gotta dance
Dance the pain away
We got to!
We have to!

We gotta dance this fucking pain away!

Can you feel this?

long time no post...again.

so, been doing some shizznit up in this biznitch.....no, i'm lying. i've been bored as FUCK. BUT, i did come up with a spin off to Alice in Wonderland - that's always fun. but i miss my art class and teacher. :( and ASHTON especially. *head desk repeatedly*

anywhoozle, i added a game down at the bottom of the page - it's REALLY fun. no real point, of course, but you know. and i'll be adding another, WAY more fun game later. you shoot hedgehogs into SPACE :O. fav online stupid game ever. no joke.

anyways, i'm thirsty, but too scared of rabies people and the grudge and resident evil to come popping out of dark places to go get a damn coke. yes, i'm a total wuss.

wow, long time no post

so, listening to ashton's playlist for me. =] YAY

it's WAY too hot in this house. i'm gonna fucking kill my mom. it's so hot the only way to stay cool is be NAKED - but even then i'm still TOO HOT

too cold at dad's, too hot at mom's....WTF. y'know what? let's go to ashton's. then it doesn't matter cos i'm with him. LOL.

hmmm

well.....apparently i've made my boyfriend think he's fucking our relationship up. =\ anywhoozle, i'm bored.

just finished part one of my Arabic final - which i totally failed. i don't even have to go and see my grade. i know i failed. >.<

i need to take Health online over the summer. for realz. *rolls eyes*

i should go get my music and chill....i'm too far gone to care anymore...WOW that's great lyrics. *starts writing song in head*

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

bored as hell. and i have to write a damn song for my World History class. but i got the easy era - 1960's. hell yes. Beatles and Grateful Dead, racism and civil rights, Detroit and San Fran. sooooooooooooooo easy. and i have GREAT music and lyrics to base it off of. xD

cept the 80's might've been fun....WEIRD SCIENCE! *starts dancing to Oingo Boingo*

bah, so hungry. i can't wait for lunch...which is in....30 FUCKING MINUTES. damn *head-desk*

as per usual, i am seated in World History.

i need to get my schedule for next year. >.< i KNOW they fucked something up. i KNOW it. and i can drop health, and take it online. *shudders* i hate health. not because we have to learn about STDs, just the WAY we have to. cos teachers think that the scare tactic way is gonna keep us from fucking each other. for real? that just makes us wanna rebel. i mean, seriously, if you say ABSTINENCE ONLY kids go FUCK YOU. if you say "this is sex, and the consequences of unprotected sex when you're too young to support a family, and might get a disease. and THIS IS A CONDOM. have safe sex." and kids go "wow, awesome....i don't feel the need to go get knocked up anymore. :D"

lol. anyways, i can drop health and get out of arabic, unless i failed this semester. and then that means....4 ART CLASSES! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! oh yeah, this is goooooooooooooooooooooood.

does anyone know how to make a flash animation???? cos that'd be really cool if you could teach me. lol.

urgh....something smells like wet dog in here. that's so gross. wtf smells like wet dog in a school?! gross gross gross.

i'm so damn boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

DON'T TRUST A HO

(title stolen from 3OH!3's "Don't Trust Me")

i can't trust anyone anymore. for real. not my mom, not my family, not my "uncle" or anyone. just Ashton and Olivia and Blaine and Austin. not even Ariel really, and that makes me sad.

because everyone looks at me and says "you're too young" "you're so overdramatic" "you don't understand" "you think you know everything, but you don't" and all this other SHIT. i don't need that. i don't need fucking pessimism in my life. the fucking douche fags.....

i swear to god, i'm gonna run away and live in Olivia or Ashton's closet. for real. i fucking hate living here. you know, i figured it out. i don't sleep well in my bed at my mom's or at my gma's, but i can sleep for HOURS on end and feel extremely rested when at my dad's. why? cos it's not poisoned with BULLSHIT. i need a place to sleep where i can know i'm not gonna wake up and get yelled at for being a lazy douche bag or whatever. i mean, during the summer at my dad's he couldn't give less of a fuck that i'm fucking nocturnal - he understands. and being nocturnal at my mom's makes life better....i don't have to deal with her or cassidy. and my gma's house is....unsettling. i don't like it. it's really big and creepy....i don't think i could live in a mansion.

but anyways.....i'm bout ready to slit my throat, or someone else's. i don't wanna go to school unless i get to hang with Olivia and Blaine and Austin....and Jordan (Austin's gf). she's nice. i fucking hate my life. i wonder if i could take my final tests (not finals, but the final test we get in class) early and then spend the last week in the art room. i feel so much better just stepping into that room. it's nothing but amazingness.

on the topic of art and summer, apparently there's an art camp up near my other gma's house, in Carlisle, PA. and she's gonna see about enrolling me into that and/or this horse riding camp. :D something to look forward to....hahahaha, i can't wait for the art camp. i bet that i'll be the only one who knows more than half of what we'll do/what it's called. xD because Mrs. Brandhorst is fucking awesome. she's a BAMF (Bad Ass Mother Fucker). i'm gonna tell her that tomorrow. xDDDDD

well, i feel better now that i've vented. =] too bad more people don't read this. =[ it makes me very sad.

DEE-NIED!

i'm so bored....you have no idea. i can't WAIT to get out of school. NO JOKE. for realz....plus WasteTimeChasingCars will be posting a LOT more videos =D hahahaha....

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BORED. that's a lot of "m"s :D

i'm tired all the time too. >.< it's pissing me off. i could sleep for a whole 24 hrs and still be tired as CRAP. and then i could get 2 hrs of sleep and still feel the same level of CRAP. GAYYYY.

engh....oh well. ohhhh....i have an episode of CSI: NY waiting for me. xD

heh....i'm depressed. again.

gawd....i'm so pissed right now. SO FUCKING PISSED. i'm gonna kill somebody. for realz. *head-desk and shoots self* jesus christ.....

*growls*