if

if i were to hold you close
and love you the very most
if i were always there for you
and gave you kisses always too
if i were perfect and demure
and had a shining allure
would you still love me?

if i fell into drugs
and hardly gave you hugs
if i sold everything
and even our ring
if i owed too much money
and never thought that you were funny
if i said I HATE YOU too many times
and told you way too many lies
would you still love me?

if i began to laugh and kill
and do what i will
if i began to cut and hurt
and in the early shadows lurk
if i cut off your fingers and your toes
and your arms and legs and ears and nose
if i branded my name into your skin
and starved you until you were much too thin
if i screamed abuse into your crying face
and choked you off with thin black lace
would you still love me?

no matter what
would you still love me?