Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I am only living out a lie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(title stolen from the lyrics of "Legal Assassin" from Repo! The Genetic Opera)

well...i took a huge leap yesterday and fell flat on my face. i told my mom that i had lied and that my boyfriend and i had had sex before. and she just looks at me and says "thanks for telling me" - which is her way of rejection.

so, i'm an emotional wreck, because of my gay ass mom, and being 300 miles away from my boyfriend, and the only people who really seem to listen/care/be my friends at school are Olivia and Blaine. WTF.

anyways, i've been a lazy, depressed mofo, and haven't updated my blog, or stories, or my other blog (with my artwork). and i feel horrible. *grimaces* i stayed home today, and slept all day and i still feel horrible and like i havent gotten any sleep. *rubs face*

i'm just waiting for the day when i just break down and bawl my eyes out at school. or break down and do something stupid and break the vows i made...like cut myself or something. gay....

any comments would be appreciated, as long as they aren't telling me i'm just a teenager and there are others out there that have it worse than i do. i get that enough from "friends". so if you've got ANYTHING negative to say, GTFO.

and go check out my art gallery: http://kittencubgallery.blogspot.com

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