Floods of Many

so, a quick recap, pertaining to the word "flood":

life is pretty miserable for me here in Woodstock. the friends i made have already seemed to forgotten me, except Okie. he still greets me with some modicum of enthusiasm. so, i've been flooded with depression and lots of anger and a bitch load of apathy; i'm no where near Ashton and Olivia.

i'm also flooded and overwhelmed by the new school schedule. i have 1hr classes now, and it keeps freaking me out. i'm so used to 1.5hr classes, and i hate this whole having to do all your homework for each class every night. at NAHS, you can do home work for one class every other night, according to your scheduling. so much easier.

and i keep floating by. my mind is telling me that this is real, that i'm not going back to NAHS anytime soon, but it hasn't really registered yet. i'm not looking forward to when it does, either.

and, in the physical sense, turns out that it's been raining forever down in Atlanta, and now my friends' houses are flooded. and i'm not there to help. Kelly, Cody, Olivia....their houses are flooded and i can only assume that means the majority of those i know down there are as well.

anyways, so, life is pretty miserable. i have an analogy for you, but i've decided to write it as a poem. so maybe that'll be written/posted soon-ish.

also! dunno if i told you this, but i have a deviantART up! so check it out:

http://the-oxyg.deviantart.com/

ta, for now
-The OxyG

Woodstock, Illinois = WTF

so...no offense to all my new friends, but Woodstock, IL is a dinky little piece of crap. srsly. at least compared to Atlanta.

anyways, so, i have been moved up to Woodstock, and my mother is getting remarried, and I am warming up to living here as long as i get to stay out of the house most of the time. i'm not happy about being moved here....but i'm happy even tho i'm here, because of my friends. does that makes sense? no? go fuck yourself.

weather report: i feel like i should be out trick or treating. this shit is GAY - strike that. it's so uncool that it's fucking heterosexual. LOL. but oh my dark lord, i swear, it feels like October/November does in ATL.

on another topic, 9 and Alice in Wonderland look like the SHIT. of course, anything with even just Tim Burton's pinky toe in it has some level of amazingness to it. xD and Alan Rickman as the Caterpillar?! -head esplodes- like WOW. the Cheshire Cat is gonna have a bitching voice. Stephen Fry does the vocals....so i'm thinking a very British and snarky version of "Amercan McGee's Alice" sorta Chesh. and OF COURSE, Johnny Depp will be AMAZING as the Mad Hatter. and Helena Bonham Carter! WOOT WOOT!

hummmmm....OH! i have Glass/Metal/Jewelry Art (GMJArt for short) and Drawing/Printmaking Art (Drawing for short, lol) classes with two awesome art teachers.....both at the very end of the day.

and speaking of end of the day, i feel so weird having all my classes everyday. cos NAHS has A Day and B Day, and so you have 1A, 2A, 3A, 4A, and 1B, 2B, 3B, 4B classes....switching every other day. it feels WEIRD to have 8 classes a day again. O_O

anywhoozizzle.....RAMBLING. like i usually do.

....god i'm fucking cold. >.< i need mah friends to cuddle me to warmth! and to close the window. lol

MAH HURRRRR (my hair)

check it out biznitches! my blonde hair! :D total awesomeness, right? and my hair doesn't feel very damaged, but i do plan on taking good care of it. xD

i'll be cutting it soon, and styling it differently. perhaps somewhere down the line i'll add some other colors, like pink and blue. idk. maybe purple!

anywhoozle...

BLONDE BABY!

so, HELLZ YES! i died my hair blonde (ish). :D it's actually this really pretty tawny color, with brown roots! :B does make me happy. i'll post a blog later with a pic - too lazy to do it now.

but DAYUM. that shit will sting your eyes and nose and you will NEVER forget what that fucking smells like! like, *shudders* my eyes are still stinging...but hey, the things we do to hide. :P

anywhoozle, gonna check in with the rest of my people :D

moving times

so, once again, we are moving. *sighs and rubs temples* ever since we moved out of WC we've moved every summer. *head desk* why can't we just settle down in a house - with a basement? cos damn i love me a vampire lair. LOL.

but, mom has given me slight motivation. if we haul ass then i'll get money and/or a party....hopefully "and" lol. so that would be pretty bitching. especially if i can get this hairdye thing to work. cross your fingers and hope for blonde, not orange! lol

anyways, i'm bored OUT. OF. MY. MIND. at least i can use the "get the fuck outta the house" time to gather up unwanted clothes and shit and sell them....doesn't Plato buy clothes? you know, Plato, the teen thrift store? anyways....yeah

I got my mad rad hair!!!!

so, i'm on the prowl for platinum blonde hair dye. :D it's gonna be bitchin'. i'm still gonna see if i can convince my mom to let me do the roots...*rolls eyes* just because i wanna do it once doesn't mean i want to dye the roots everytime. i know it's not healthy, but this once isn't gonna hurt. i'm not going to dye my hair platinum blonde everyday. i just want it blonde all the way, and then have other colors within it. then straighten and trim/cut, then add hairspray and BAM! scene hair. :B

anyways, yes, looking to do my hair blonde. it'll be a drag if i have to have my roots stay brown. *sighs*

so, also thinking about what clothes, toys, etc. i can sell for some money. i need some new clothes. *ponders*

anywhoozizzle, ttyl

REiNVENT MYSELF

xD so, as you can see, EVERYTHING is getting changed on the blog. still a work in progress.

but i'm configuring it to my newfound sense of belonging.

cos used to, i didn't really have anywhere to belong, looks wise or personality wise. i'm a little preppy, emo, goth, hippie, ghetto, punk, girly, tomboy....i'm a little of everything. AND I FOUND WHERE I BELONG!

scene kids - they are everything rolled into one, and i finally have a sense of belonging. we stick out in the crowd, even with each other, and i like that. but we have core elements that become the typical stereotypes that classifies us as scene, and i LOVE that.

anyways, i'm thinking about gathering up all my old stuff that i don't want/need/feel right in anymore and selling it. then i can maybe go buy a new wardrobe of things that fit me. :B

luv ya bitches.

-Chinah

:O The Umbrella Academy as a show on Cartoon Network? In my dreams - LITERALLY!

so as the title suggests, i did indeed have a dream where Gerard Way's "The Umbrella Academy" was to be a show on Cartoon Network. of course, i immediately thought, "well, that's stupid. if i was Gerard, Cartoon Network would be the last station i'd allow to have my ideas, since they rejected the Breakfast Monkey!" LOL. i'm so weird that my dreams reflect my actions on a nightly basis. this has gotta be the 5th or 6th MCR related dream i've had in the past few months. lawlz

Can You Feel This?

so, i've fallen victim to Blood On The Dance Floor, or BOTDF for short, which is a scene band consisting of two guys, Dahvie Vanity and Garrett Ecstasy. :3 i love them, and one of my absolute favorite songs by them is "Save The Rave".

and the song elicited feeling from me that i can't tell you because Ashton said i can't ever say them again. -_-' so, i'm going to have to revert to a diary again. i probably should've never made this.....1) no one reads it, and 2) the few that drop in now and then feel the need to direct people i don't want reading this here. *glares*

so....expect even fewer blog entries. :(

so, anyways, let me get you the lyrics to "Save The Rave":

Music is my drug
Music is my love
Music is my favorite drug
Music is my only love

Music is my favorite drug
Music I've fallen in love

Music is my favorite drug
Music I've fallen in love
I got my milkshake
And I'm doing real well
Can't you tell! can't you tell!
Cuz I'm texting on my cell
Cuz I ahhhh ahhhhh
And your blahhh blahhh
Cuz I'm restitched
Remixed!
You can talk
You stupid tricks
You're the ones
Who'll buy my shit
Snap! snap! make this club clap

Dear mate to the soul
I've lost control
I'm breaking the scene
And this stupid routine
I've taken the pills
Giving in to thrills
Save the rave
Gotta dance the pain away!

I fell in love with the girl
At the dance club
She said what! as I'm kicking
Up the party drugs
She's so rad with her
Pin up stilettos
Pop lock
Bodies rock
Turn up
That speaker box
Bang! bang! dannng
Shoot em up
Shoot up this place
I'm with this
This sickness
So fictitious

Can you feel this?
Can you feel this?

Dear mate to the soul
I've lost control
I'm breaking the scene
And this stupid routine
I've taken the pills
Giving in to thrills
Save the rave
Gotta dance the pain away!

Ahhh, aaahhhhhh

We gotta dance
Dance the pain away
We gotta dance
Dance the pain away
We got to!
We have to!

We gotta dance this fucking pain away!

Can you feel this?

long time no post...again.

so, been doing some shizznit up in this biznitch.....no, i'm lying. i've been bored as FUCK. BUT, i did come up with a spin off to Alice in Wonderland - that's always fun. but i miss my art class and teacher. :( and ASHTON especially. *head desk repeatedly*

anywhoozle, i added a game down at the bottom of the page - it's REALLY fun. no real point, of course, but you know. and i'll be adding another, WAY more fun game later. you shoot hedgehogs into SPACE :O. fav online stupid game ever. no joke.

anyways, i'm thirsty, but too scared of rabies people and the grudge and resident evil to come popping out of dark places to go get a damn coke. yes, i'm a total wuss.

wow, long time no post

so, listening to ashton's playlist for me. =] YAY

it's WAY too hot in this house. i'm gonna fucking kill my mom. it's so hot the only way to stay cool is be NAKED - but even then i'm still TOO HOT

too cold at dad's, too hot at mom's....WTF. y'know what? let's go to ashton's. then it doesn't matter cos i'm with him. LOL.

hmmm

well.....apparently i've made my boyfriend think he's fucking our relationship up. =\ anywhoozle, i'm bored.

just finished part one of my Arabic final - which i totally failed. i don't even have to go and see my grade. i know i failed. >.<

i need to take Health online over the summer. for realz. *rolls eyes*

i should go get my music and chill....i'm too far gone to care anymore...WOW that's great lyrics. *starts writing song in head*

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

bored as hell. and i have to write a damn song for my World History class. but i got the easy era - 1960's. hell yes. Beatles and Grateful Dead, racism and civil rights, Detroit and San Fran. sooooooooooooooo easy. and i have GREAT music and lyrics to base it off of. xD

cept the 80's might've been fun....WEIRD SCIENCE! *starts dancing to Oingo Boingo*

bah, so hungry. i can't wait for lunch...which is in....30 FUCKING MINUTES. damn *head-desk*

as per usual, i am seated in World History.

i need to get my schedule for next year. >.< i KNOW they fucked something up. i KNOW it. and i can drop health, and take it online. *shudders* i hate health. not because we have to learn about STDs, just the WAY we have to. cos teachers think that the scare tactic way is gonna keep us from fucking each other. for real? that just makes us wanna rebel. i mean, seriously, if you say ABSTINENCE ONLY kids go FUCK YOU. if you say "this is sex, and the consequences of unprotected sex when you're too young to support a family, and might get a disease. and THIS IS A CONDOM. have safe sex." and kids go "wow, awesome....i don't feel the need to go get knocked up anymore. :D"

lol. anyways, i can drop health and get out of arabic, unless i failed this semester. and then that means....4 ART CLASSES! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA! oh yeah, this is goooooooooooooooooooooood.

does anyone know how to make a flash animation???? cos that'd be really cool if you could teach me. lol.

urgh....something smells like wet dog in here. that's so gross. wtf smells like wet dog in a school?! gross gross gross.

i'm so damn boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

DON'T TRUST A HO

(title stolen from 3OH!3's "Don't Trust Me")

i can't trust anyone anymore. for real. not my mom, not my family, not my "uncle" or anyone. just Ashton and Olivia and Blaine and Austin. not even Ariel really, and that makes me sad.

because everyone looks at me and says "you're too young" "you're so overdramatic" "you don't understand" "you think you know everything, but you don't" and all this other SHIT. i don't need that. i don't need fucking pessimism in my life. the fucking douche fags.....

i swear to god, i'm gonna run away and live in Olivia or Ashton's closet. for real. i fucking hate living here. you know, i figured it out. i don't sleep well in my bed at my mom's or at my gma's, but i can sleep for HOURS on end and feel extremely rested when at my dad's. why? cos it's not poisoned with BULLSHIT. i need a place to sleep where i can know i'm not gonna wake up and get yelled at for being a lazy douche bag or whatever. i mean, during the summer at my dad's he couldn't give less of a fuck that i'm fucking nocturnal - he understands. and being nocturnal at my mom's makes life better....i don't have to deal with her or cassidy. and my gma's house is....unsettling. i don't like it. it's really big and creepy....i don't think i could live in a mansion.

but anyways.....i'm bout ready to slit my throat, or someone else's. i don't wanna go to school unless i get to hang with Olivia and Blaine and Austin....and Jordan (Austin's gf). she's nice. i fucking hate my life. i wonder if i could take my final tests (not finals, but the final test we get in class) early and then spend the last week in the art room. i feel so much better just stepping into that room. it's nothing but amazingness.

on the topic of art and summer, apparently there's an art camp up near my other gma's house, in Carlisle, PA. and she's gonna see about enrolling me into that and/or this horse riding camp. :D something to look forward to....hahahaha, i can't wait for the art camp. i bet that i'll be the only one who knows more than half of what we'll do/what it's called. xD because Mrs. Brandhorst is fucking awesome. she's a BAMF (Bad Ass Mother Fucker). i'm gonna tell her that tomorrow. xDDDDD

well, i feel better now that i've vented. =] too bad more people don't read this. =[ it makes me very sad.

DEE-NIED!

i'm so bored....you have no idea. i can't WAIT to get out of school. NO JOKE. for realz....plus WasteTimeChasingCars will be posting a LOT more videos =D hahahaha....

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
BORED. that's a lot of "m"s :D

i'm tired all the time too. >.< it's pissing me off. i could sleep for a whole 24 hrs and still be tired as CRAP. and then i could get 2 hrs of sleep and still feel the same level of CRAP. GAYYYY.

engh....oh well. ohhhh....i have an episode of CSI: NY waiting for me. xD

heh....i'm depressed. again.

gawd....i'm so pissed right now. SO FUCKING PISSED. i'm gonna kill somebody. for realz. *head-desk and shoots self* jesus christ.....

*growls*

i'm so very bored....

i have NOTHING in my brain ATM. for realz yo.......

so....i have nothing to blog about. why am i even here?! LOL

Screaming Dreams (a song i wrote)

Screaming Dreams

Lay there with your hair all perfect
Eyes glowing
Lips speaking
But I can't hear because I'm screaming
Holding my breath so I don't
Wake up

Because I never wanna wake up
If I'm never gonna see you again
I never wanna stop dreaming
But I can't stop screaming

Holding you close
But you're not there
Clawing at my chest to get my beating heart
Make it stop hurting
Make it stop bleeding
Make it stop screaming

Because I never wanna wake up
If I'm never gonna see you again
I never wanna stop dreaming
But I can't stop screaming

If dreaming
Will take me where I wanna be
Then I will sleep
Forever

Because I never wanna wake up
If I'm never gonna see you again
I never wanna stop dreaming
But I can't stop screaming

I never (Never wanna wake up)
If I never see you again (Ever again)
I never (Always wanna dream)
Stop this screaming!

Day of Sadness

so.....my eyes really hurt. you know when you go to the beach and swim around without goggles and wipe the salt water from around your eyes repeatedly all day? that was me, but with tears. *scratches under eyes* know it really hurts....but i feel better. a good cry is always good. not to mention Ashton made me feel immensely better.

unfortunately, i expect my spirits to drop the instant i wake up tomorrow - since i won't have contact with Ash for all of school. >_< it makes me a very unhappy Chinah.

anyways......i've got a vlog video in the process of editing....so, i'll give ya the link once i've finished it and put it up on YouTube.

Parry Gripp

why, my dear readers, hello there. let me introduce you to an artist my boyfriend introduced me to: Parry Gripp.

his songs are....stupid. no meaning to them, no reason really to make them. but that's what makes them so freaking awesome. go check him out: http://parrygripp.com/

nyah....bored.

sitting at dad's. =D

this weekend is senior banquet for my youth group....two years from now, i think only Olivia and i will be seniors, unless we get some friends to join in. which means....we could totally have a Nightmare Before Christmas themed senior banquet. =O!

anywhoozle, bored bored bored, and wanting something to do. so i'll go download some music. xD

BORED AS FUCK

so, i'm sitting here (well, kneeling since there are no computers for the damn chairs) in my Algebra 2 class.....BORED OUT OF MY EFFING MIND. *head-desk* and my knee hurts

anyways, you guys like "Fairy Tale"? i wrote it last night around like......midnight or 1am...idk. lol =P

AAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNDDDDDDD! i finally found a good subject to jumpstart my vlog with: THE SWINE FLU!!!!!!!! *runs around screaming head off like the apocalypse is coming*

SERIOUSLY people! the regular flu kills people too, but no one is freaking the fuck out about THAT one! jesus, everytime something new pops up the gov. and media feel the need to scare the living fuck out of us. why? idk. if this was like "Quarantine" or some new huge AIDS epidemic or like "The Andromeda Strain" i'd believe there was a plausible reason to scare the fuck out of people. but it's just a flu - some people will die. we all die one day, so get used to the damn idea.

now, for something completely different....the bell rang. good thing too, cos this keyboard is uber dusty and fucking with my OCD......

Fairy Tale

Ever sweet taste
Of morphine laced lips
Melt the pain away

While ocean tossed orbs
Sit like shining pearls
In beach tanned smooth skin

Forest of withered savanna
Tossed in the wind
And sigh in the sky

A cage of zen
Long and ever soft
Gentle and firm

Dog nuzzles
Cat scratches
Vampire kisses

Skipping free through the waves
And flying high upon rainclouds
Or laying beneath burnt moonlight

Always and forever
I can find my moving castle
And slumber happily

le sigh le sigh

well, i've got lots of school work to work on....and by that i mean art work. namely ceramics. =\ i got behind while making the Alice in Wonderland themed creative mug for Gerard - i put a bitchload of effort into it. and now i've got to finish Mikey's Nightmare Before Christmas themed mug ASAP - AND put another bitchload of effort into it. O_O and then i need to get STRAIGHT TO WORK on my coil vase - which i also need to put a face onto. *is highly overwhelmed* i'm staying after school tomorrow for Olivia's performance (plus she's spending the night at my house) so maybe inbetween the end of school and the performance i can work on it. *head-desk*

this is how much i love MCR. LOL. xD i still needs to make Ray and Bob and Frankie somfin....*ponders* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........................................

.........that's a lot of dots. LOL.

i'm bored. and sorta depressedly/angrily hyper - meaning one small thing goes wrong and i can drop like a stone in water from hyper to either super depressed or super pissed. =O i know, i'm weird.

what else to talk about....*think think think* OH! omg, i swear to god Winnie the Pooh is cartoon promotion for nudity. if you're gonna give one of them a shirt, give them ALL a FULL set of clothes dammit! jeeeeezzzz

lol, anyways. *rolls eyes* i need an actual life. and that, in itself, is the funniest joke ever. LOL

what the hell is wrong with my world

i've just gotten two of the sweetest comments on a story i'm writing when i left an author's note saying that i haven't updated cos of all the shit in my world. i started crying, because they are just amazing and so loving. and because i must lead a pathetic life if people i barely know care more than the people i've known for years.

but that doesn't make me love Mibba and those readers who care any less. i love how nice people are there. thank you, "Lullaby." and "Pfft" - you guys made my day.

I am only living out a lie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(title stolen from the lyrics of "Legal Assassin" from Repo! The Genetic Opera)

well...i took a huge leap yesterday and fell flat on my face. i told my mom that i had lied and that my boyfriend and i had had sex before. and she just looks at me and says "thanks for telling me" - which is her way of rejection.

so, i'm an emotional wreck, because of my gay ass mom, and being 300 miles away from my boyfriend, and the only people who really seem to listen/care/be my friends at school are Olivia and Blaine. WTF.

anyways, i've been a lazy, depressed mofo, and haven't updated my blog, or stories, or my other blog (with my artwork). and i feel horrible. *grimaces* i stayed home today, and slept all day and i still feel horrible and like i havent gotten any sleep. *rubs face*

i'm just waiting for the day when i just break down and bawl my eyes out at school. or break down and do something stupid and break the vows i made...like cut myself or something. gay....

any comments would be appreciated, as long as they aren't telling me i'm just a teenager and there are others out there that have it worse than i do. i get that enough from "friends". so if you've got ANYTHING negative to say, GTFO.

and go check out my art gallery: http://kittencubgallery.blogspot.com

Hear the sound, the angels come screaming down

oh my god, that song...even though im not very religious (monotheisticly anyways), that song strikes a chord. never heard it? well, YouTube it: Heaven Help Us by My Chemical Romance. so amazing....

sorry, it popped in my head and i decided to write it down. back to my yaoi ^w^

YAOI TIME???!?!?!!!!

hahahaha, i'm going thru one of my many obsession phases of yaoi....right now, it's focused on Death Note. mainly MelloxMatt and LxLight. xD

also, i figured out why i'm so emotional. r_r i'm on my period. I FUCKING HATE BEING A CHICK. *bites pillow and rips to shreds*

GAH! anyways. i'm bored out of my mind. and going to go read LxLight yaoi on FanFiction.Net (FFN) and set up a new GaiaOnline account....i sorta miss it. but i know once i get on that all the cool people i met aren't on there anymore. all of them are shit fucks these days...but it's a nostalgic place, since that's where Ashton and I met for the second time, but thoguht it was the first LOL

"Sunday I cried all night...."

engh, stole the blog title from "We Are Pilots" by Shiny Toy Guns. but i did cry my face off last night. it's not my place to say why, but i'm still depressed over it and pissed off. not to mention my insides are fucking up....i think i might be getting sick. FML. *head-desk* i just want to live next door to my boyfriend, instead of 300 miles away in a shitty school with shitty friends and shitty teachers. why is that such an impossible thing?!

'scuse me while i go ponder ways to kill myself.

i love how no one reads this. i wonder if i did kill myself if they'd even think about reading my blog to see if the reason i killed myself is on here....i'm not gonna do it of course, but that doesn't mean i can't try to think of a quick, painless, and not messy way to commit suicide, you know?

cos blowing your brains out = quick but leaves a mess for your friends and relatives. hanging yourself means you have to do it exactly right or you'll die painfully from suffocation instead of a snapped neck. cutting your wrists means slow, painful AND messy. so, i just need to find something that's all the positive sides of suicide....haha, i'm gonna write a song called "The Positive Side of Suicide". you just wait; when i'm a rockstar i'll be singing that song. =]

music does wonders.....and people wonder why emos love it...*rolls eyes*

100th POST! WOOT! lol

today is Friday (YES!) and i'm spending the night @ Olivia's house. xD i'll take pics for teh bloggingness.

and, i have a new blog. http://www.kittencubgallery.blogspot.com/ <---i'll be posting art work of mine soon - mainly new, and a few of my favs from ye olde days. lawlzy.

i still need to think of how to start off my VLog. it would feel awkward just jumping into the world....but i guess i just have to do that. =\ should i become YouTube famous no one will watch the very first, except the obsessed fans. LOL

speaking of obsessing, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT MCR ALBUM! =] eet makes meh happeh. and Gerard and Lyn-Z's baby is going to be the cutest and most spoiled baby on earth. lol.

Olivia and i are going to like, Bedazzle some gansta hats and bibs....we're making one bib where it'll have blood splattered across it and it says "What you lookin' at, PUNK?" LOL!

*sigh* sitting in World History. =\ it's a boring day - we were watching a movie and then some lady came and pulled half the class (5 kids - yeah, our class has 10 kids....wtf) and now we're waiting for them to come back. >.<

ohhhhhhhhh, guess what? like, Tuesday? i think? idk. anyways, this little white dog was walking in the middle if the road and my mom picked him up. he has a collar but no tag and is a Maltese (sp?). he's adorable. and very nice.

i wonder why no one reads my blog. it's like my online diary....out there for everyone....and no one reads it. GAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY. lawlzy

doom de de doom doom.

yeah, i'm bored.

anywhozizzle, gonna go post a quick thing on my Gallery. =]

REPO! The Genetic Opera

"I look like a crime scene, Dad." -Amber Sweet (played by Paris Hilton - blech)

Paris, you ALWAYS look like a crime scene...the kind you'd find in a back alley of Vegas. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

anywhozizzle, "Repo! The Genetic Opera" was AMAZING! it has the guy who played Giles (or Jiles? idk) in "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" (the series). and Alexa Vega ("Spy Kids" Carmen), and Sarah Brightman (if you haven't heard her sing you've not lived. she is a GODDESS).

oh god, i cried. the movie is amazing - BUT NOT FOR THE SQUEAMISH. it's directed (i think, or produced) by the guy/people that brought us Saw. so, yeah, def gots teh blood and gore.

"Repo!" is set in the middle of the 21st century, where an epidemic of organ failure sweeps the world. and out of the tragedy rises GeneCo. they can help you cheat death, by giving you new organs. but fail to make a payment and the Repo Man will come and repossess your life.

=O insanely dark and gothic....I LOVE IT.

anyway i have to go to bed now. mom's bitching at me about how evil i am to myself for not going to bed right after i've seen this amazing movie. i've been living with her for 16 goddamn years and she still doesn't get that i can't just leave it at that. i HAVE to tell someone and gush about it and praise it. or totally put it down. either one.

anywhoozle, ttyl.

oops....

http://www.youtube.com/user/KittenCubOnYT <<-------forgot to put that on the last post. O_O

NEW YOUTUBE CHANNEL!!!!

i don't have any videos yet, but there will be some soon! but i don't know what to VLog about. =[ any suggestions? i just need to get started. writing/BLogging is easy once you get started......so i assume VLogging is too. help?

Def gotta get a VLog going. you know?!

so, VLog? hell yes. def got to start one. so i'll be making a new account on YouTube for my VLogging pleasure. hahaha, that sounds dirty.

the only problem is that my house is a very dim place. not in the eyes of the human, but in the eyes of my shitty camera. >.< so if anything's not blindingly bright it won't show up very well....GAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY. LOL.

anywhoozzle, watching YouTube!

New Blog? A Vlog?

i'm thinking about making another blog on here (since you can have multiple ones) called The Gallery. it's where i'll post my art and describe it...you know, like why i drew it and stuff.

and i'm thinking about starting a vlog too. on YouTube.

ttyl!

Scanning!

scanning pictures i drew right now. ma or may not post them up here. =\ but, i have to. G Way said to send art, and maybe he'll give me pointers...you know?

YouTube videos

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUnefUbWf_M&feature=related - Matt and Mello's "Guy Love"! lol (song from the musical episode of Scrubs) (warning, yaoi/gay content)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AvKRPt7DvIA&feature=related - Matt is the Geek in the Pink (warning, yaoi/gay content)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXcGrGQoGBo&feature=related - MattxMello (meaning a Matt and Mello pairing) to a cover of Britney Spear's Toxic. (warning, yaoi content)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYJgdyQxUeE&feature=related - MattxMello to Le Disko by Shiny Toy Guns (warning, yaoi content)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Te5PWZqMPIM&NR=1 - MattxMelloxNear to Sexy Back by Justin Timberlake

You fucking Snitch...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88xxdZ2d4H4

hahahahaha, so random. but i love it. Harry's cameo..."You fucking Snitch..."

D-D-DAMN

i haven't posted in a while! wow....i need to keep posting. =P

anywhozizzle, do you know what i found out today? sxephil lives in Atlanta too! =O i know right?! he's awesome. love the Phillip DeFranco show. xD

now, i have a question...is it illegal to stalk a YouTube famous person?! lawlzy. anyways, if you don't know who i'm talking about, check out both his channels on YT:

sxephil: http://www.youtube.com/user/sxephil
PhillipDeFranco: http://www.youtube.com/user/PhilipDeFranco

i've come to believe that people in Atlanta are very blunt and to the point...like myself. and my friends. and sxephil.

in other news, i took a break from internet society these past few days. it felt sorta....refreshing. but, i found that my lack of ability to sleep/sleep itself has nothing to do with staying n the internet until 2 am on a school night....every school night. so, i still can't sleep. GAY.

speaking of gays, Day of Silence was last Friday (April 17, 2009). Day of Silence was a day where you were silent...of course. but the silence was to bring awareness to others that LGBT (lesbian gay bi transgender) teens are afraid to be proud of their sexuality because of the harassment and abuse against them. and you didn't have to be LGBT to participate and show your support.

and now dinner is ready. *salutes* off to melt my brain with the boob tube (television for those not savvy with old fart lingo - LAWLZY).

a picture to you, my lovelies.

my picture to you, dearies. =] isn't it wonderful?

Six Flags: More Flags, Pretty Shitty Fun

so, i now have a 2009 Season Pass to Six Flags! pretty awesome.

i went to Six Flags yesterday. also awesome.

i arrived at 3:00 pm. we parked, walked to the entrance, and got in line. by the time we got in it was 4:30 or 4:30. so, we immediately went and stood in line for The Mind Bender in Gotham City. we spent 2 goddamn hours in line, rode it, and tried our luck for the Goliath. the park closed at 8:00 pm. by the time we got through the line, on and then off the ride, and out to the car, it was 9:00 fucking pm.

lesson learned: just fucking skip school to go to Six Flags. totally worth it. Spring Break + Six Flags = NO FUN

what's new

uhmmmm, let's see. not much is new really. updated another one of my stories. =] that's fun.

and also, I'M GOING TO SIX FLAGS TOMORROW! WOOT! actually, it's today, since it's 4:10 am. lol. oh, and, on Tuesday, i went to my friend Daniel's birthday. xD how awesome?! very awesome. and we watched Fast and Furious. lol, after the scene where the gas truck is rolling towards them and Vin drives like a bat out of hell underneath it, Daniel leaned over and whispered loudly "I don't get it!" LOL. (and a note to everyone - Daniel was just saying that for comedic effect. just FYI.)

herm...what else? *ponders* OH!!!!!!! Ashton and my one year anniversary is on Sun/Mon! why both days? well, we live a time zone apart, so, when he asked me out, it was 11:04 pm his time and 12:04 am my time. pretty damn sweet. xD! so yuhp, our anniversary is on the way, and we look forward to many more together.

ooooh! the laptop is free now! time to play my Death Knight! and you wanna know how badass she is? it's an Unholy female Draenei Death Knight. oh yeah, so badass. not to mention i'll give her Engineering for a profession, so she can make a motorcycle someday. SO FUCKING BADASS! and she sexy as hell. i don't know if i've said it before, but i would totally bang/date a chick Draenei if they were real. don't know what i'm talking about? go Google it. xD

WoW-TASTIC!

so, WoW is consuming my life....AGAIN. LOL. 

but anyways, i've got a couple stories going, plus this blog, plus YouTube, plus Twitter (you should add me btw - http://www.twitter.com/KittenCub ), and Facebook....and now WoW. so, that's my very hectic internet life. my real world life is even worse. *head-desk*

so, i'm now off to force an update out of my brain for one of my stories.

The Catcher In The Rye

what is a Rye? really? i'm very curious....

anyways, i'm about halfway thru The Catcher In The Rye. i picked it up - truthfully - because of an interview with Gerard Way. they asked something about a book (i think it was what was his fav) and he said Catcher In The Rye. he said that he read it in college and that he liked it because it's very much like him (or his high school years). so i was like, ???? what is this? weird! let's go read it. and now, i'm sorta understanding how Gerard could identify with it, but a lot makes me go "huh? how is this Gerard?"

but i like it. Holden is very much like me. lets his mind just ramble on and on and on and on....like me. but i do less remembering and more fantasizing. like, making up 20 different scenarios of when i next see Ashton, and what i want to do with him, what i want to say. you know, that sort of stuff. =]

anyhoo, i recommend it. it's a great book, when it's not shoved down your throat by a teacher. LOL

boredededededededededededededededededededed

yup, bored. gonna start downloading mp3s and shit for Ashton's and for Daniel's CDs...and my own. yum. but right now i think i'll hit up WoW. haven't been on in a while.....

wow!

long time no see, eh? anyways, so, i've got a lot of internet shizz on my hands. got my stories i'm writing, stories i'm reading, stories i'm beta-ing (being the editor for), and then Twitter, Blogger, YouTube, Facebook and all my IMing. *dies*

and speaking of YouTube, i recently recorded five shoot of me lip syncing "Cemetery Drive" by MCR....let's see how awesome or failing my editing skills are to make this musc video. and if i even did anything right.

i felt weird taping some of the shoots. some people were around to hear me sing and watch me dance and shit....awkward. but i have to get used to it, if i want to be lead singer in a band! O_O but it was exhilarating. and funny. the one guy out there watching me the whole time looked like he didn't know whether to compliment me or be freaking out. lol. in the end he just watching me and smoked. LOL.

so, yeah, hmmm....i need MORE music on this damn playlist. >.<

OH! and it's Spring Break! YAY!

OMG FML

yes, FML - Fuck My Life. the - THE - funniest, saddest site on the web. http://www.fmylife.com/ <---GO. sign up. and when something REALLY bad happens to you? you can tell everyone about it and get sympathy.

i totally need an FML shirt...so does Austin, since he says it 24/7 LOL

World History again

i got 30 minutes left of World History. lol. just had some easy adding to do. but it sucks, cos it's all the death and crap. >.< you know, military deaths, civilian deaths, total deaths. WWII beat WWI by like....millions. ouch.

anyhoo. hummm....idk if i said anything about the party on Saturday....probably. but yeah. pretty shitty. DJ kept playing songs from the 80s and saying they were from the 70s. LAWLZ.

Sunday was ok. i started a new story...AGAIN. i epically FAIL at writing online these days. ever since i wrote my baby, "Come Angels Of Unknown," and never got to finish it because my account was terminated, i can't ever get past the first few chapters. CAOU was my BABY! *cries* it was 20+ chapters long, and was going to go on for many many more! and they shut me down cos i stood up for a writer who was getting horribly verbally abused. WTF! sure, i used extremely COLORFUL language, but i was standing up for this girl who was getting flamed for no reason other than the subject matter and a grammar/spelling error here and there. IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE SUBJECT DONT FUCKING READ IT!!!! BAH! people like that always piss me off. ugh.

*rolls eyes* but, i can't get too mad. the happy pills i'm taking make me get a headache if i start getting overly angry/violent or depressed. i assume it's from the chemicals from the happy pills conflicting with the chemicals my brain starts producing when i start thinking negative things. =\

i love the =\ face. i make it in real life. LOL. i try to make my little smiley's match my real facial features. like ^w^ (which, in my opinion, is very similar to =3 - or :3 - and x3 ).

back to work for WH. cos apparently i was just the first person done. LOL.

Wake Up by Arcade Fire

it's the song for the current "Where The Wild Things Are" commercial. here's a download:

http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/4/7/1856338/The_Arcade_Fire-Wake_Up.mp3

have fun, and enjoy the beauty of it.

meh.....bored outta my mind

*stares absentmindedly at the computer screen, too bored to even function mentally*

lame as HELL party and "W."

so, went to this stupid as fuck party for my youth group. i mean, yeah, of course it'll be lame cos it's church related, but this was lame as FUCK. god...and of course, the instant i leave to go be emo, they all started dancing. gay....i think most of them hate me.

and now i'm going to go watch "W." lol

Girl Talk

ok, so, the title is misleading, but go to http://www.myspace.com/girltalk and click the "CLICK HERE TO BUY" button. but you don't HAVE to pay. you can enter the amount as $0.00 - and this music is amazing. of course s/he can't sell the music for personal gain, because of copyright laws. =/ if i wasn't poor and s/he could earn money off of that, i'd buy it. xD

Inside all of us is a WILD THING

oh my god! i'm about to cry from how happy i am. this brings up so many childhood memories. you have no idea!

for those who aren't in the know, there is going to be a movie made from the children's book "Where The Wild Things Are". if you've never heard of it, i will bawl my eyes out and choke you. if you've heard of it but never read it, i should beat the crap out of you. if you've read it, i love you.

but yes, this is the trailer for the most amazing children's books ever. it was one of the things that shaped my childhood.

TRAILER: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--N9klJXbjQ

i remember when i was young, i used to refuse to go to bed if my mom wouldn't read "Where The Wild Things Are".....and then play "Foxy Lady" by Jimi Hendrix. LOL

ain't got no muse

so, like the title says, i'm SOL on the muse department. fucking hell....

*yawns* i should prolly go to sleep...12:15 am here.

if

if i were to hold you close
and love you the very most
if i were always there for you
and gave you kisses always too
if i were perfect and demure
and had a shining allure
would you still love me?

if i fell into drugs
and hardly gave you hugs
if i sold everything
and even our ring
if i owed too much money
and never thought that you were funny
if i said I HATE YOU too many times
and told you way too many lies
would you still love me?

if i began to laugh and kill
and do what i will
if i began to cut and hurt
and in the early shadows lurk
if i cut off your fingers and your toes
and your arms and legs and ears and nose
if i branded my name into your skin
and starved you until you were much too thin
if i screamed abuse into your crying face
and choked you off with thin black lace
would you still love me?

no matter what
would you still love me?

*takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly*

i'm going to have to do that a lot today. i took a happy pill, and i think it really does work, but when i get depressed, my mind starts fucking up and i get pain waves and mood swings to the extreme and all this bad stuff.

and since i'm actually going to school today something's bound to depress me. wish me luck, my imaginary friends.

Such a fuck-up

that's what i am. i swear.

somehow i manage to fuck everything good in my life up. it's so gay. i hate myself sometimes. i really do.

Intentional Insanity

is it possible to make yourself insane? sometimes i'm just being over dramatic, but i've noticed i start doing those things without thinking. so, can you make yourself insane without meaning to?

*sighs* well, in any case, i'm too depressed to think about much. i feel like i'm gonna puke....

do gifs work on this blog?

EDIT: apparently not....damn

Happy Pills

so, yeah...just took a happy pill.

and just as i'm sitting here wondering if it would work, since most OTC (over the counter) meds don't work on me, my arms got really light feeling and my head got lighter.

and so....i'm sitting with a giant top hat from Party City on my head. it's a badass hat too...wore it for my Malice in Wonderland costume.... xD

hmmmmmmmmmmm....i still don't think it's fully kicked in. we'll see.

College Emails

ok, i know i should probably be gupling down every single email coming from all these colleges, but REALLY! these guys are almost SPAMMING me! it's so annoying! just cos i'm in high school doesn't mean i don't have a LIFE, or have shit to worry about. how the fuck am i gonna get into one of those colleges without good grades? so i have my homework to work on, plus they oh so conveniently (sp???) started spamming me during crunch time for the Grease set in Set Design!

speaking of, here's a couple pics of my art teacher, some of my classmates, and some parts of the set. i helped so much! *does big chibi anime eyes and flutters eyelashes* isn't it GORGEMOUS? even tho i hate that fucking play...

my art teacher gleefully swinging on the swing we hung from the rafters over the stage...and scaring the living shit out of us as the lights started rocking back and forth and creaking....omg.

Mr. Blain Dollar...yes, that's his real last name. but he goes as Blaine Cambell (Campbell? whatever...not his real name lol) so people STFU. lol. but he's a really cool and funny guy to hang with. xD

half of the diner scene. we created these 8ft by 8ft by...2ft? i think...anyways, these walls, with casters (those little wheels on rolling desks and stuff...yeah, those are casters) that rotate 360 degrees for easy mobility. =]

xD! i love painting this! mainly cos i got to color in "RYDELL SUCKS"....and it's for the play. oh, it makes me so happy. xD

yeah....that's really gay in my opinion....but whatever. i had fun sketching and painting the letters, even tho it's a gay font. HAHAHAHA, you can see someone swinging behind it. LAWLZ

And, this is my art teacher, Mrs. Brandhorst (not Brandhorse!!!! you say the damn "t"! lol) - she's the one in the swing - and then a classmate, Hailey. i think that's how you spell her name....>_>

hahahaha, i know someone who has a crush on her....*giggles*

Stick Figures on Crack

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aW9QXcJWnLg

New Layout

okay, so, as you might have noticed, i have change the header, and added a picture to the right side bar.

as for the header (which is the first picture), those are, in fact, my eyes. and i did the eye makeup with a stick of eyeliner. ...what?! i get bored!

and BAHAHAHAHAHA! this picture is AWESOME. OBAMA...that's my nigger. LOL. fav out of all the campaign pics. LAWLZ.

RE: how to stay brutal at the happiest place on earth....

#1. smoke! smoke! smoke!, til the eyes of the young tear up around you. sure the characters and staff will try and remind you that smoking is only to be done in the designated smoking areas...but they will never catch you lighting up on its a small world...fuck the small world.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! yes, this is why i love Frank. lol. and that picture! BAHAHAHAHAHA!

=O NO WAY!

haha, actually, it isn't a Way. it's Mista Frank Iero! he's blogging again, and that makes me happy. i love seeing all of them blog....but where's GERARD?! god dammit....*head-desk* lol, so, i take that back. they aren't ALL blogging...and Bob is gonna get arrested?! WTF?!

hahahaha, this is what happens when you become addicted to Twitter...

need sleep, need sleep, but in a serious writing mood X_X

so, this week we're starting poetry in L. Arts...something i'm pleased about. xD EDGAR ALLAN POE IS MAH HOMEDAWG! lol. i'm sure he'd be THRILLED to know that (note the heavy sarcasm).

anywho, i'm gonna post some of my poetry up on here, so you lovely non-existent readers can read it. LAWLZ

LE SIGH

i have a question....WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT OF LETTING NON-USERS COMMENT IF NO NON-USERS READ OR COMMENT THIS, DAMMIT?! fucking HELL man. >.< i do all this work for all my friends who, in the end DON'T GIVE A DAMN! *growls and head-desks*

and i even put up cool as hell music. YOU'RE WELCOME YOU UNGRATEFUL BASTERDS.

home alone...and yet i can't think of anything to do. wow

so yeah, what the title says. *rolls eyes* how sad is that?

anyways, if you've got a Twitter, i'm on there. http://twitter.com/KittenCub i'm following only 7 people right now....and you can guess 5 of them! lol. yeah....i'm bored as hell....

maybe i'll get on IMVU...yeah....

uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i'm........tired, but not wanting to go to sleep, but wanting to go to sleep...and....yeah....

SO ADORABLE!

so, being a YouTube whore out of boredom, and i ran across these fucking ADORABLE videos of little kids singing MCR! a little four year old girl singing WTTBP and then "Mini MCR" (five kids, tho in the vid i saw they were short one guitarist and called the one they had Fray, lol) playing along to TSL. so cute. xD!!!!!!!!!

*sighs* i now understand why/how Bob finds all those damn videos...if i was on break for a long time with nothing else to do i'd be a YouTube whore 24/7! LOL.

damn....why am i in a "tease MCR" mood today? =X oh well....while i'm at it, lol.... Mikey is so freaking weird in an awesome way. and where the hell did he find a statue of Einstein to sit next to?! (if you're unsure of what i'm talking about, make a Twitter and follow the band, or just tune into their blog at http://www.mychemicalromance.com/ every now and then). and like i said before when Mikey first posted the blog entry, RAY TORO IS A LUCKY MOTHER FUCKER. he has Jimi Hendrix's GUITAR! bah! lucky bitch...and he stole my hair. LAWLZ.

and why doesn't Frank ever post? i misses him. ='''[ him and his midgetness. lol. he makes up for height in insanity. lol. but he really does scare my mom. lol. especially with THIS picture:

bahahaha, lol, Frank is so weird. they all are. and i think Gerard is the nerdiest. but that's why we love them so much; because they're not rockstars, they're nerdy gamers that happened to make it big. xD

and they have a bitchin' fan base too. most of us are like "we love you, but not to the point where we rip your shirt off". my friend saw that happen to Pete Wentz once. he jumped into the crowd at a concert and BOOM. his shirt was gone. O_O owie......good thing they didn't get his HAIR. ouch....

=O speaking of Pete, i don't think i mentioned this: Pete and Ashley were in the most recent (March 18th, 2009) episode of CSI: NY! oh my GOD what a gross episode....but morbidly, INSANELY genius. see, this guy who worked as a mortician on the CSI division would always do the post-mortem on the ODed heroine junkies that came in. like, years later, they find a dead junkie floating in the water and find that his liver, kidneys, and bladder - the organs where narcotics build up - were missing. and then they exumed the bodies that the former mortician had done post-mortems on and found, in every single one of them, the liver, kidneys and bladder were missing. the guy had rented a storage rooma nd when they went in, it was a fucking LAB. this guy had taken heavily heroined (is that a word? idk) narcotic organs and blender-ed them and turned them into fucking HEROINE and started fucking selling it. *shudders* eeerrrrgh.....gross but morbidly genius, like i said.

ok, now i'm starting to get creeped out. because i'm a fucking wimp, and thinking of creepy heroine guy made me think of The Unborn, The Univited, The Grudge, The Ring....i'm getting seriously paranoid now....<=[

maybe i should quit blogging for a bit....i'm too hyper and fucking freaked out now anyways....*thinks of Twilight*

TWILIGHT!

So, i went to the Borders midnight partay for the Twilight movie. xD

it was pretty lame 'cept for the fact that i met most of my lil sis's friends - who had been scared half to death of me by her rumors! *rolls eyes* i swear, she tells them i eat little 7th graders for breakfast! >.< but yeah, i seem to be a big hit with the young kids...all the time. idk if that's good or bad.....

BUT! i went as Alice Cullen. xD i looked pretty fiiiiiiiine. lol. straightened and flipped my hair like hers, and dressed for teh part. but unfortunately Twilight isn't big like Harry Potter, so there were lame ass contests and stoooooopid questions...and no costume contest. GAAAAAY. i so would've won. lawlz. tho my hair wanted to be limp instead of flippy, dammit. >_<

anyways...yeah...been pondering things and blah blah blah....hopefully going over to Olivia's later today....when everyone's awake. LOL. maybe i'll snitch Twilight and sneak it to Olivia's to watch. xDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha, and torture Alyvia. because apparently, she hates MCR and Twilight. i was like WTF?! how can you hate BOTH of those?! but she doesn't like Gerard's singing (which is reasonable) and hates Twilight for its popularity (which is NOT reasonable!). really....i don't think she's read it. Ariel didn't read it and hated it, but once i played the soundtrack and blabbed non-stop about it she finally said STFU and give me the damn book! and so i did. and now she's just as obsessed. which makes me happy to be a Twilight evangelist. LAWLZ. aaaaaaaaaaaaanywhooooooo....bored. sorta tired. mostly bored. and listening to MUSIC. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

*lopes away as an evil giraffe*

L. Arts again

meh, more 10th grade Literature and Composition. class is almost over so that's good. >.<

anyhooo........bored. wanted to add an entry. *rolls eyes* i'm turning into Gerard...always blogging. lol jk, i love Gerard. xD

bored as HELL.

hmm-de-de-hmm-hmm....idk wtf to do, but i am STARVING...sooo....i'm gonna go get some food then go get on IMVU. =]

The Wall

So, these are pictures from THE WALL. and other WALLS. but they all go under THE WALL. savvy? lol

yes, my friends and i painted these. =3 and we will keep on painting. xD

oh yeah, one more:

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! (say it Brit Punk style, like that freaky broccoli guy from that Raisins show!)

xD!!!!! WOOTNESS! i have just updated my playlist! and it is awesome. i have added a shitload of MCR, and then 5 songs from the SoS (Sounds of Summer) list - since 4 couldn't be found. i'll post YouTube links laterrrrrrr....

aaaaaannnnd! some fucking FUNNY pictures! and some cute ones too!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! ohh, this made me crack up so bad...hahahaha!

xD! you have no idea how much i love the artist/creator of miniMCR. this is the funniest series of comics online! ohhhh, so damn funny...

hahahaha! while browsing Google Images for "Young Frankenstein" (which is, btw an AMAZINGLY hilarious movie!) pictures, Olivia and I came across this picture off the Shannon's blog (here on Blogspot too!) hahaha, so the little kid's face is the Shannon baby. lol. "Abby Normal"!

amazingly cute picture of Gerard. =] lol, i've never seen that face before. i wonder what he was doing...O_o lol

AND THE FEATURE PICTURE:

Gerard Way: very young (the site said age 13, but idk)this....is so damn adorable. you have no idea. i mean, i "aww"ed out loud to an empty room...lol. this picture is, by far, one of my favorites of Gerard. xD i wish we had more pictures of the band when they were younger! hahaha, so cuddly. oh, i saw this one pic of Ray when he was like, 8, in a tux. such a serious face. O_O i wonder if it was for a funeral... =\ but let's hope not. lol. and of course there are a few baby pictures floating around. hahaha, the one of Frank is so...Frank. lol. big sunglasses, infamous grin in kid form. hahaha, even then he was mischievous. lol.

so, enough of MCR. not everyone loves them as much as i do (as i'm told by many of my friends...like Sara...who will promptly launch into a fangirl rant on Curt Cobain and how she'd be stalking his son if he had one...you know, at least my guys aren't dead...and i don't wanna stalk them. >_> or their kids. that would be awkward...and Worm would probably smush me. LOL!)

LoVe iS NoT LiKe aNyTh!nG, eSpEc!aLlY A FuCk!Ng kNiFe

hehehe...i like The Used...well, their music. i'm not exactly happy with them right now. >.<

i recently found out from a friend why MCR and The Used never talk anymore. when Gerard was still drinking, he and Bert McCracken (sp?) were drinking buds. but then Gerard got sober and tried to get Bert to get sober too - like any friend would/should. and, i don't know if it took days of coaxing from Gerard or just one statement, but Bert bit Gerard's head off and said he was a pussy for going sober. r_r they say they don't hate each other and they're friends...but they've both been avoiding Warped Tour and never contact each other.

=\ i love The Used, but not Bert. if that makes sense. which it should, because he's not a good friend if he chews someone out about being healthy. >.< i mean, Erik is super healthy and eats freaking rabbit food everyday, and tells me i should too, but i'm not gonna bitch out on his ass about it. *rolls eyes* grrr.

anywho....yeah....

Language Arts Hell

this class sucks. it does.

not the subject, though. the teacher and the students.

now, i'm not saying i'm perfect - hell no. but i am way better than half of them.

and the teacher? jesus christ, she couldn't handle a pair of mute kindergardeners! she really needs to go take some classes on how to handle a class of teens. or just teach elementary kids. really.

i'm very displeased with this year's turn out of teachers for me.

Chemistry: he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. he's been giving us equations to balance that are incorrect, and when i asked for a better understanding on just how deadly and radioactive pure thallium is, he began to ramble on about how OXYGEN is deadly. my theory is that the school is too damn cheap to pay for an actual Chemistry teacher AND a football coach. and this is a fucking science magnet school, god dammit!

Algebra II: she doesn't know how to explain the math in easy terms for us to understand. but other than that she's a great teacher.

10th Grade Lit/Comp: she doesn't know how to handle the students or teach effectively, and so no one knows what the hell they're doing.

the only core classes with decent teachers that i have are Algebra and World History. my other four classes consist of Arabic and 3 art classes (with the same art teacher, since we only have one). so, 1/2 of my absolutely needed classes are for SHIT! i fucking hate this school.

"Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere new"

excactly.

Medicated, I'm Contemplating...

**NOTE: this was posted after class was let out and A lunch was finished**

i'm in Chemistry. been locked in this hell hole for the past two hours (since i arrived 30 min late and i have another 30 min to go). *groans*

anyways, been listening to Sounds of Summer Vol 2 (a free mix CD off the internet that gives you songs from up and coming bands), and my favorites of the moment are:

1. Livin' Th' Dream by You, Me, and Everyone We Know
2. Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace
3. Home Is A Heartache by Honor Bright
4. Medicated by National Product
5. Rock, Shock and Load by Thee Armada
6. Parker by Automatic Loveletter
7. A Certain Kind Of Touch by Breathe Electric
8. Level Of Doubt by Vital Light
9. Where Were You? by Every Avenue

this is a long post, cos i'm gonna post up the lyrics for each of the above songs. so, if one interests you, just scroll to the number. =]

1. Livin' Th' Dream by You, Me, and Everyone We Know

Yesterday I turned twenty-three
The date didn't mean that much to me
Then I started adding figures up in my head
It seems the cost of dreaming has left me in the red.

Because of alcohol I've shared sixteen beds
There's a five year reunion hangin' over my head
At least eleven-thousand people think I'm something I'm not
The courage to let them down isn't something I've still got.

Sometimes I wanna cheat but I don't
I wanna quit but I won't
'Cause I made this bed

Give me a shovel you'll be amazed
At how fast I dig a grave
Baby just, lay in it.

You're only brave 'til you're scared
You're only unique until compared
To every other worthless fuck trying to
Crawl into bed tonight.

You can't afford to live like this (Yes we can, yes we can)
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big (Yes we can, yes we can)
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet, you know I'm only getting started.

You can't afford to live like this
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big.
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet.

You can't afford to live like this (Yes we can, yes we can)
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big (Yes we can, yes we can)
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet, you know I'm only getting started.

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2. Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace

With so little sleep
At least you'd think I'd find some peace in my dreams
In my dreams
But my mind still winds up on the same thing
The same scene
The same themes

Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious
Built up from every day
So I'm stuck with these nightmares
Where you're gone and so far away

And when I wake up
I realize that everything's still wrong
I'm still here and you're still gone
It's not fair
Cause either way I spin it
Separation seems so wrong
These breaks are far too long for me

Hours and hours
I'm stuck inside this place and this town
And you're gone
Far away, you're fighting for your life all alone
I want to wake up and go home

Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious
Built up from every day
So I'm stuck with these nightmares
Where you're gone and far away

Oh, this tortures me so much that
I get sick and I throw up
In my dream and here on my bed
It's messed up how it's all in my head
Yet it's affecting me oh so bad
I guess this distance just makes me sick

Cause when I wake up
It's 4 AM and I'm still all alone
Your message on my phone
Don't tell me that sleeping through the night
Is never this hard when you're home
Cause I already know

Wake me

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3. Home Is A Heartache by Honor Bright

Last night I said too much but your still
Here so I'm doing something right.
So can I apologize?
I'll make this up to you somehow. {x2}

This time I, I made a mistake
I'm man enough to admit
I wrong this time. With loaded
Eyes baby you look beautiful tonight.
(Don't Gamble with my heart)

Have you heard anything about me?
You can see it in my eyes
Be better off alone
I'll get over this just
Give it time. You know I'll
Comeback to you, always
Comeback to you.

Been dying to tell you I've been
Yours since day one.{x2}

If distance makes the heart grow
Stronger. You'll never
lose me when I am gone.
(Lose me when i am gone){x2}

With loaded
Eyes baby you look beautiful tonight.
Have you heard anything about me?
You can see it in my eyes
Be better off alone
I'll get over this just
Give it time. You know I'll
Comeback to you, always
Comeback to you back to you.
(GO! )

I hate it when this home
Becomes a heartache.
I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful tonight.)

I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful
Tonight comeback to you){x2}
I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful tonight.)

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4. Medicated by National Product

I lie awake for days end
Black satin above
And nice blood red sheets
I've tried but to no success
Can I close my eyes
And get some rest

And he said
It'll be alright
If you just learn to close your eyes
It's not the taste you're gonna like
It's the feeling that you get
When you start to forget and you're

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

And I'd love to wake up with myself
Maybe that will creep me out enough
To see who the hell I really am

Sometimes I forget
And you can bet that I'm

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

And maybe this will help me
Get some rest
And maybe she will help me
Sleep a little better
And maybe he will help me
Think a little clearer now
And maybe this isn't what is best
Maybe this is what the doctor ordered
So I'll have another

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
Medicated
Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
And I don't think they care much there

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5. Rock, Shock and Load by Thee Armada

his is a story about some boys from Texas!
Who know how to get down
And you know we'll be the life of the party
So lets get this started now

The stories we would say when we were young
believing everything would be okay
Fighting off those whose who said we were wrong
we're gonna make it some day
And no matter where we go
you hear them singing
ROCK, SHOCK AND LOAD!

This is How we do it where we come from
Just get into it (HEY!)
Or move along

Iv'e got two barrels full with six shots each
Only the finest at my side
weather is hot as hades, like our southern ladies
where everythings bigger and everything lasts all night
we get down until the sun comes up!

ROCK,SHOCK AND LOAD!

This is How we do it where we come from
Just get into it (HEY!)
Or move along
Just move along
oh move along
Just move along
move along

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6. Parker by Automatic Loveletter

I was your fire once
you thought of me as your one true love
i got so mad
said things that later I would regret and regret and regret
holding onto my chest and pounding till it turns purple
a breaking bow and the sound of a scream muffled by pillows
so dont so long
and dont farewell
hear me out now i've just begun to say

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure given shame of my own
that you dont..
remember

sworn off blue lips
kiss them warm
with love comes deep dark red
and paper cuts
from letters i re-write explaining how to fall in love
well pictures inspire and songs never tire
and there's always clouds to float upon
saving me best for last
down for keeps up for grabs
we'll play stop and go
but it feels just like freeze tag
so ill see you right
applaud and encore
ill be braver just you wait here till i say

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure shame of my own

im naked once so dont think twice
hold on
its hard enough to bite my shy
hold on
hold on
hold tight

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure given shame of my own
of my own
of my own
its a sure shame of my own
that you dont that you wont remember

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7. A Certain Kind Of Touch by Breathe Electric

We've gotta get out of this place, she said
and fallow our hearts to content, she said
i want it all, but there's nothing you can do to stop me
and oh my god, they said in wonderment
oh my god, the way you look tonight
and this could be the way for us to change
this could be, this could be
the way for us to change

i can feel my breath growing faster
i think this could be the right time

let's call out all our fears right now
and open hearts with clear content
we know, it's all about the way it comes out
of your mouth and mind
and oh my god, i think it's happening
oh my god, the way you look tonight
and this could be the way for us to change

i need you more now, than ever
this could be the right time to change

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8. Level Of Doubt by Vital Light

(none could be found easliy - will post later)

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9. Where Were You? by Every Avenue

Home for the weekend,
Looking for a good time;
Of all the numbers you end up calling mine.
Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot.
I should know better than to
Give her what she wants.
I picked her up and she was three-forths gone.
She passed out before we even got to talk.
All I want to know is:

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.
Down!

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround,
Just forget it, just forget it.

sooooooooo bored

what the title says man. ain't nuthin to do really. >.<

RE: This Is Why You're Fat... posted by Ray on Mar 14, 2009 5:37pm

Mikey Way and Bob Bryar stumbled across this gem of a site. I think I've eaten about 30% of this stuff...
http://thisiswhyyourefat.com/

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! go there and look at the nastyness! *barfs*

yet....a few things look good.... r_r

Rapist House

ok, so, my friend Olivia lives in an apartment complex. one night, like a month or so ago, she was talking to me on FB (Facebook) Chat and told me that this guy was lurking outside the complex, WATCHING them like a super creeper, really sketchy. they called the cops, but they didn't really do anything, just told the kids to stay inside. (wtf, dude, what if he breaks in? what then bitch?!)

then, last week, i was at her house playing outside when the boys (her brothers and their guy friends) came up to Olivia, Alyvia and me and pointed out this really sketchy guy sitting IN the bushes - not behind, IN - eating McDonald's and watching us all (the complex is next door to a McD's). he was white, wearing a light blue shirt, and chubby. and he sat there eating - or "eating" - for at least one hour.

and just the other day, Thursday, Olivia and I walked to the Walgreene's near her house. on the walk back, we saw a pair of neon pink CHILD'S PANTIES on the drive way of this half-boarded up abandoned house. that was sketchy as it was. but then, we saw a white, chubby man wearing a black shirt just walk right through the gate that said, quite clearly, NO TRESPASSING and go into the house. now, this house looks like, death lives in their in the form of mold and rotting wood. so this guy isn't living there or lives there illegally. but the guy looked like the creeper in the bushes, and now i'm freaked out.

maybe i'm overreacting, but what if it's the creeper watching them at night? what if all three incidents are from the same guy? what if he's a fucking rapist?! there were a little girl's panties on the driveway! who drops underwear?! never before, in my entire life living in this big city and going through not so nice places of town, have i seen a pair of girl's panties. and they were like, what an 8 yr old would wear.

so maybe i'm freaking too much. but i'm scared for Livie.

i'm going to be watching that house and that guy carefully from now on. i'm so ready to call the cops. fucking creepers.

O_O

my blog is fucked...my dashboard (the home page for when i log on) said 51 posts, meaning this is the 52nd. yet, i had 47 on the blog page itself, so this is the 48th. WTF.

50!!!!

HERE'S THE 50th ENTRY! =3

uhmmmmmmmmm........

idk what to blog...but i wanted to, so here. lol

oh...my....god....

i feel horrible. i've been spelling Alyvia's name wrong this whole time....sorry guh. T-T

RE: Hard at work... posted by Ray on Mar 12, 2009 7:37pm

If you ever wondered where sheer musical genius begins and ends, its right here folks. This here is the board, where all our ideas, songs, intros, outros, and everything else related to writing music gets catalogued. What the average person sees is a collection of pictographs that take the shape of dogs, Boozeys, and Punch-Out characters. What our eyes see is well beyond your comprehension. See Piggy's left eye there? That's actually the chord progression to the best chorus you've ever heard. Don Flamenco's eyebrows? Insane verse riff. Boozey's projectile vomit? You don't even know how good that part is. My Chemical Romance. Hard at work...

WTF?! i can't tell if you're yanking our chain or not. r_r but that certainly is an interesting colletion of drawings. i wonder who all drew them...i think Gerard drew the creeper next to the dog? idk....O_O

RE: Practice-Cam posted by Mikey on Mar 11, 2009 7:43pm

Welcome to practice-cam. We will periodically post "exclusive shots" from live inside our "secret headquarters". Here's Ray Toro ladies and gentlemen!- mid-riff. For everyone keeping score at home, that there Strat was once owned by Mr. Jimi Hendrix.

WHAT?! Ray Toro you are one lucky ass bitch! Hendrix was like, THE coolest guitarist of his day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't believe you have his fucking guitar! thank you Mikey, for giving me another reason to envy you guys, besides the hot emo chicks all after you. lol, jk.

but DAYUM.

SHIIIIIIT

so, in school once again, but this time in Arabic. just finished my Arabic midterm. i know i failed. r_r gayyyy.

anyways, been listening to Green Day this whole time, and it makes me feel better. x]

i wish my Arabic teacher would just chill the eff out. he's getting worse each day, and like, always biting my head off. ME. why?! i sit there quietly and - even if i don't understand or zone out - i'm not being a distraction like half the class that never gets reprimanded! and they do as bad a job as i do! so gay. >.<

he's grading the tests right now. ~*rolls eyes*~ he'll call me up to make me watch him correct it, but i already know i failed. i don't need to watch it in a replay. jesus.

Austin is trying to sit on me....LOL

blah....what else to talk about....erm....hummmm....oh i def need more music in my playlist. more of MCR, MSI, Sixx: A.M. and that good stuff. x]

so, my mom's on Facebook now, and apparently so is Alex Grey (Gray? idk). and i have 22 or 24 friends on Facebook cos i deleted everyone who doesn't talk to me on there. still considering deleting more. i haven't even dared to face my MySpace page in at LEAST a month. i don't like MySpace. they have too much shit all over the place. so annoying. plus i'm pissed i know nothing about HTML so i can't pimp my shit. lol

grrrr, half this class annoys the shit outta me. mainly guys. and it doesn't help i am the ONLY Center for the Arts kid in here. >.< gay as hell.

blahblahblahblahblahblahblah

i hate all these sites that we're denied access to. maybe PPP (PotterPuppetPals.com) isn't blocked, that would be awesome.

anyways, end of entry.

Pranks and Practical Jokes Needed!

Once again, in World History typing up a blog entry. lol.

today, and tomorrow, and everyday from now on, i really NEED some good (BUT HARMLESS!) pranks and practical jokes! i've already got a few dealing with fake cum (made from a mixture of flour and egg whites), like filling a squirt gun with it and shooting someone in the face (LOL) or buying condoms and filling them with the fake cum and bombing people or letting them sit on one.

so i need lots of funny pranks and practical jokes that are, i said before, TOTALLY HARMLESS. nothing permanent, like acrylic paint or sharpie on clothing (skin is fine since it will come off), or anything that might make too huge a mess. because i don't know enough of these fun things. and try make sure it's nothing that will totally embarrass someone, or drive them to tears. =\ that wouldn't be cool.

GIMME DEM PRANKS YO!

"Nighty night..." said Filch in his creepy ass voice

yes, ahem, Harry Potter on the mind. x3 anyways, nite nite. joining my beloved in my dreams soon.

and, speaking of, i'd like to inform everyone of a surprise...SOMETHING...i shall be producing soon. i'm really hoping it will turn out gorgeous. xD

Gerard smoking header

i just realized how well that picture of him fits on my blog. lol. "KITTEN CUB'S OPINION" above his head and then Gerard smoking calmly away and holding Starbucks (yum!) like, "what? just read, muthafucka" LOL! yes.

and, i'm adding the picture here, just in case i have changed the header when people come rifling through the old posts. lol. RIFLE AWAY DEARIES! lawlz

At SKEWL

So, i'm sitting here at school. =\ but hey, interwebbing! i'm surprised and very gleeful i can actually get on to Blogger without using a proxy. it makes me happy, even though no one besides Ash really reads this. T-T

anyhoo, in World History with Mr. Purnell (i can't remember if it's two "L"s or one...) and we were just reviewing for midterms. YUCK! ~*head-desk*~ i'm so glad i know all this stuff. history is fun if you can add in all the interesting facts. like...

did you know that Mary Shelly (sp?), the writer of Frankenstein, made that book out of a competition between her husband and their male friend? and did you also know that Mary, her husband and that friend were regular threesome lovers? interesting fun stuff!

so, yeah, history is really fun.

i have like, a few more minutes before class ends...and then i have lunch with Olivia!!!! YAY! but i'm so damn tired. i HATE spring daylight savings time. fall is AWESOME (one extra hour of sleep). who came up with these crazy rules anyways?! and why?!

uhhmmm....what else to talk about...oh i have set design later today. =3 i LURVE my art classes. i wonder if you can take online courses for health....because if i did that and pass my arabic class i can have FOUR art classes next year!!!!! YES! and if i take more online classes for my core classes (english, math, history, and science) then i can get even MORE art classes! xD i love the internet.

Mikey and Rorschach

I really like this picture! but Mikey looks not so good (in the sense that he's sick). appearance wise, i will quote a comment on his Twitter: he is a classy kind of sassy. LOL.

so if he's sick i hope he feels better!!!!

New Header pic

i LOVE that series of pictures. it's very serene and yet very Gerard. =]

but yeah, new header. if i had HTML knowledge this place would be PIIIIIIIMPED. but, alas, i don't. lol

WHAAAAAAAAAAT?!

i was looking up some Umbrella Academy stuff when, low and behold, i stumbled across this site: http://www.veidt.com/?p=373

AND WHAT IS THIS I HEAR?! The Umbrella Academy is getting adapted into a movie?! HOW FUCKING SWEET IS THAT?! and from this picture (i THINK it's from something else, but maybe not) it looks like they're considering Natalie Portman for the White Violin!!!! HOW FREAKING AWESOME?!

anyways, that's my random happiness about Umbrella Academy. might have more today. lol.