OMG FML

yes, FML - Fuck My Life. the - THE - funniest, saddest site on the web. http://www.fmylife.com/ <---GO. sign up. and when something REALLY bad happens to you? you can tell everyone about it and get sympathy.

i totally need an FML shirt...so does Austin, since he says it 24/7 LOL

World History again

i got 30 minutes left of World History. lol. just had some easy adding to do. but it sucks, cos it's all the death and crap. >.< you know, military deaths, civilian deaths, total deaths. WWII beat WWI by like....millions. ouch.

anyhoo. hummm....idk if i said anything about the party on Saturday....probably. but yeah. pretty shitty. DJ kept playing songs from the 80s and saying they were from the 70s. LAWLZ.

Sunday was ok. i started a new story...AGAIN. i epically FAIL at writing online these days. ever since i wrote my baby, "Come Angels Of Unknown," and never got to finish it because my account was terminated, i can't ever get past the first few chapters. CAOU was my BABY! *cries* it was 20+ chapters long, and was going to go on for many many more! and they shut me down cos i stood up for a writer who was getting horribly verbally abused. WTF! sure, i used extremely COLORFUL language, but i was standing up for this girl who was getting flamed for no reason other than the subject matter and a grammar/spelling error here and there. IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE SUBJECT DONT FUCKING READ IT!!!! BAH! people like that always piss me off. ugh.

*rolls eyes* but, i can't get too mad. the happy pills i'm taking make me get a headache if i start getting overly angry/violent or depressed. i assume it's from the chemicals from the happy pills conflicting with the chemicals my brain starts producing when i start thinking negative things. =\

i love the =\ face. i make it in real life. LOL. i try to make my little smiley's match my real facial features. like ^w^ (which, in my opinion, is very similar to =3 - or :3 - and x3 ).

back to work for WH. cos apparently i was just the first person done. LOL.

Wake Up by Arcade Fire

it's the song for the current "Where The Wild Things Are" commercial. here's a download:

http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/4/7/1856338/The_Arcade_Fire-Wake_Up.mp3

have fun, and enjoy the beauty of it.

meh.....bored outta my mind

*stares absentmindedly at the computer screen, too bored to even function mentally*

lame as HELL party and "W."

so, went to this stupid as fuck party for my youth group. i mean, yeah, of course it'll be lame cos it's church related, but this was lame as FUCK. god...and of course, the instant i leave to go be emo, they all started dancing. gay....i think most of them hate me.

and now i'm going to go watch "W." lol

Girl Talk

ok, so, the title is misleading, but go to http://www.myspace.com/girltalk and click the "CLICK HERE TO BUY" button. but you don't HAVE to pay. you can enter the amount as $0.00 - and this music is amazing. of course s/he can't sell the music for personal gain, because of copyright laws. =/ if i wasn't poor and s/he could earn money off of that, i'd buy it. xD

Inside all of us is a WILD THING

oh my god! i'm about to cry from how happy i am. this brings up so many childhood memories. you have no idea!

for those who aren't in the know, there is going to be a movie made from the children's book "Where The Wild Things Are". if you've never heard of it, i will bawl my eyes out and choke you. if you've heard of it but never read it, i should beat the crap out of you. if you've read it, i love you.

but yes, this is the trailer for the most amazing children's books ever. it was one of the things that shaped my childhood.

TRAILER: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--N9klJXbjQ

i remember when i was young, i used to refuse to go to bed if my mom wouldn't read "Where The Wild Things Are".....and then play "Foxy Lady" by Jimi Hendrix. LOL

ain't got no muse

so, like the title says, i'm SOL on the muse department. fucking hell....

*yawns* i should prolly go to sleep...12:15 am here.

if

if i were to hold you close
and love you the very most
if i were always there for you
and gave you kisses always too
if i were perfect and demure
and had a shining allure
would you still love me?

if i fell into drugs
and hardly gave you hugs
if i sold everything
and even our ring
if i owed too much money
and never thought that you were funny
if i said I HATE YOU too many times
and told you way too many lies
would you still love me?

if i began to laugh and kill
and do what i will
if i began to cut and hurt
and in the early shadows lurk
if i cut off your fingers and your toes
and your arms and legs and ears and nose
if i branded my name into your skin
and starved you until you were much too thin
if i screamed abuse into your crying face
and choked you off with thin black lace
would you still love me?

no matter what
would you still love me?

*takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly*

i'm going to have to do that a lot today. i took a happy pill, and i think it really does work, but when i get depressed, my mind starts fucking up and i get pain waves and mood swings to the extreme and all this bad stuff.

and since i'm actually going to school today something's bound to depress me. wish me luck, my imaginary friends.

Such a fuck-up

that's what i am. i swear.

somehow i manage to fuck everything good in my life up. it's so gay. i hate myself sometimes. i really do.

Intentional Insanity

is it possible to make yourself insane? sometimes i'm just being over dramatic, but i've noticed i start doing those things without thinking. so, can you make yourself insane without meaning to?

*sighs* well, in any case, i'm too depressed to think about much. i feel like i'm gonna puke....

do gifs work on this blog?

EDIT: apparently not....damn

Happy Pills

so, yeah...just took a happy pill.

and just as i'm sitting here wondering if it would work, since most OTC (over the counter) meds don't work on me, my arms got really light feeling and my head got lighter.

and so....i'm sitting with a giant top hat from Party City on my head. it's a badass hat too...wore it for my Malice in Wonderland costume.... xD

hmmmmmmmmmmm....i still don't think it's fully kicked in. we'll see.

College Emails

ok, i know i should probably be gupling down every single email coming from all these colleges, but REALLY! these guys are almost SPAMMING me! it's so annoying! just cos i'm in high school doesn't mean i don't have a LIFE, or have shit to worry about. how the fuck am i gonna get into one of those colleges without good grades? so i have my homework to work on, plus they oh so conveniently (sp???) started spamming me during crunch time for the Grease set in Set Design!

speaking of, here's a couple pics of my art teacher, some of my classmates, and some parts of the set. i helped so much! *does big chibi anime eyes and flutters eyelashes* isn't it GORGEMOUS? even tho i hate that fucking play...

my art teacher gleefully swinging on the swing we hung from the rafters over the stage...and scaring the living shit out of us as the lights started rocking back and forth and creaking....omg.

Mr. Blain Dollar...yes, that's his real last name. but he goes as Blaine Cambell (Campbell? whatever...not his real name lol) so people STFU. lol. but he's a really cool and funny guy to hang with. xD

half of the diner scene. we created these 8ft by 8ft by...2ft? i think...anyways, these walls, with casters (those little wheels on rolling desks and stuff...yeah, those are casters) that rotate 360 degrees for easy mobility. =]

xD! i love painting this! mainly cos i got to color in "RYDELL SUCKS"....and it's for the play. oh, it makes me so happy. xD

yeah....that's really gay in my opinion....but whatever. i had fun sketching and painting the letters, even tho it's a gay font. HAHAHAHA, you can see someone swinging behind it. LAWLZ

And, this is my art teacher, Mrs. Brandhorst (not Brandhorse!!!! you say the damn "t"! lol) - she's the one in the swing - and then a classmate, Hailey. i think that's how you spell her name....>_>

hahahaha, i know someone who has a crush on her....*giggles*

Stick Figures on Crack

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aW9QXcJWnLg

New Layout

okay, so, as you might have noticed, i have change the header, and added a picture to the right side bar.

as for the header (which is the first picture), those are, in fact, my eyes. and i did the eye makeup with a stick of eyeliner. ...what?! i get bored!

and BAHAHAHAHAHA! this picture is AWESOME. OBAMA...that's my nigger. LOL. fav out of all the campaign pics. LAWLZ.

RE: how to stay brutal at the happiest place on earth....

#1. smoke! smoke! smoke!, til the eyes of the young tear up around you. sure the characters and staff will try and remind you that smoking is only to be done in the designated smoking areas...but they will never catch you lighting up on its a small world...fuck the small world.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! yes, this is why i love Frank. lol. and that picture! BAHAHAHAHAHA!

=O NO WAY!

haha, actually, it isn't a Way. it's Mista Frank Iero! he's blogging again, and that makes me happy. i love seeing all of them blog....but where's GERARD?! god dammit....*head-desk* lol, so, i take that back. they aren't ALL blogging...and Bob is gonna get arrested?! WTF?!

hahahaha, this is what happens when you become addicted to Twitter...

need sleep, need sleep, but in a serious writing mood X_X

so, this week we're starting poetry in L. Arts...something i'm pleased about. xD EDGAR ALLAN POE IS MAH HOMEDAWG! lol. i'm sure he'd be THRILLED to know that (note the heavy sarcasm).

anywho, i'm gonna post some of my poetry up on here, so you lovely non-existent readers can read it. LAWLZ

LE SIGH

i have a question....WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT OF LETTING NON-USERS COMMENT IF NO NON-USERS READ OR COMMENT THIS, DAMMIT?! fucking HELL man. >.< i do all this work for all my friends who, in the end DON'T GIVE A DAMN! *growls and head-desks*

and i even put up cool as hell music. YOU'RE WELCOME YOU UNGRATEFUL BASTERDS.

home alone...and yet i can't think of anything to do. wow

so yeah, what the title says. *rolls eyes* how sad is that?

anyways, if you've got a Twitter, i'm on there. http://twitter.com/KittenCub i'm following only 7 people right now....and you can guess 5 of them! lol. yeah....i'm bored as hell....

maybe i'll get on IMVU...yeah....

uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i'm........tired, but not wanting to go to sleep, but wanting to go to sleep...and....yeah....

SO ADORABLE!

so, being a YouTube whore out of boredom, and i ran across these fucking ADORABLE videos of little kids singing MCR! a little four year old girl singing WTTBP and then "Mini MCR" (five kids, tho in the vid i saw they were short one guitarist and called the one they had Fray, lol) playing along to TSL. so cute. xD!!!!!!!!!

*sighs* i now understand why/how Bob finds all those damn videos...if i was on break for a long time with nothing else to do i'd be a YouTube whore 24/7! LOL.

damn....why am i in a "tease MCR" mood today? =X oh well....while i'm at it, lol.... Mikey is so freaking weird in an awesome way. and where the hell did he find a statue of Einstein to sit next to?! (if you're unsure of what i'm talking about, make a Twitter and follow the band, or just tune into their blog at http://www.mychemicalromance.com/ every now and then). and like i said before when Mikey first posted the blog entry, RAY TORO IS A LUCKY MOTHER FUCKER. he has Jimi Hendrix's GUITAR! bah! lucky bitch...and he stole my hair. LAWLZ.

and why doesn't Frank ever post? i misses him. ='''[ him and his midgetness. lol. he makes up for height in insanity. lol. but he really does scare my mom. lol. especially with THIS picture:

bahahaha, lol, Frank is so weird. they all are. and i think Gerard is the nerdiest. but that's why we love them so much; because they're not rockstars, they're nerdy gamers that happened to make it big. xD

and they have a bitchin' fan base too. most of us are like "we love you, but not to the point where we rip your shirt off". my friend saw that happen to Pete Wentz once. he jumped into the crowd at a concert and BOOM. his shirt was gone. O_O owie......good thing they didn't get his HAIR. ouch....

=O speaking of Pete, i don't think i mentioned this: Pete and Ashley were in the most recent (March 18th, 2009) episode of CSI: NY! oh my GOD what a gross episode....but morbidly, INSANELY genius. see, this guy who worked as a mortician on the CSI division would always do the post-mortem on the ODed heroine junkies that came in. like, years later, they find a dead junkie floating in the water and find that his liver, kidneys, and bladder - the organs where narcotics build up - were missing. and then they exumed the bodies that the former mortician had done post-mortems on and found, in every single one of them, the liver, kidneys and bladder were missing. the guy had rented a storage rooma nd when they went in, it was a fucking LAB. this guy had taken heavily heroined (is that a word? idk) narcotic organs and blender-ed them and turned them into fucking HEROINE and started fucking selling it. *shudders* eeerrrrgh.....gross but morbidly genius, like i said.

ok, now i'm starting to get creeped out. because i'm a fucking wimp, and thinking of creepy heroine guy made me think of The Unborn, The Univited, The Grudge, The Ring....i'm getting seriously paranoid now....<=[

maybe i should quit blogging for a bit....i'm too hyper and fucking freaked out now anyways....*thinks of Twilight*

TWILIGHT!

So, i went to the Borders midnight partay for the Twilight movie. xD

it was pretty lame 'cept for the fact that i met most of my lil sis's friends - who had been scared half to death of me by her rumors! *rolls eyes* i swear, she tells them i eat little 7th graders for breakfast! >.< but yeah, i seem to be a big hit with the young kids...all the time. idk if that's good or bad.....

BUT! i went as Alice Cullen. xD i looked pretty fiiiiiiiine. lol. straightened and flipped my hair like hers, and dressed for teh part. but unfortunately Twilight isn't big like Harry Potter, so there were lame ass contests and stoooooopid questions...and no costume contest. GAAAAAY. i so would've won. lawlz. tho my hair wanted to be limp instead of flippy, dammit. >_<

anyways...yeah...been pondering things and blah blah blah....hopefully going over to Olivia's later today....when everyone's awake. LOL. maybe i'll snitch Twilight and sneak it to Olivia's to watch. xDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha, and torture Alyvia. because apparently, she hates MCR and Twilight. i was like WTF?! how can you hate BOTH of those?! but she doesn't like Gerard's singing (which is reasonable) and hates Twilight for its popularity (which is NOT reasonable!). really....i don't think she's read it. Ariel didn't read it and hated it, but once i played the soundtrack and blabbed non-stop about it she finally said STFU and give me the damn book! and so i did. and now she's just as obsessed. which makes me happy to be a Twilight evangelist. LAWLZ. aaaaaaaaaaaaanywhooooooo....bored. sorta tired. mostly bored. and listening to MUSIC. MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

*lopes away as an evil giraffe*

L. Arts again

meh, more 10th grade Literature and Composition. class is almost over so that's good. >.<

anyhooo........bored. wanted to add an entry. *rolls eyes* i'm turning into Gerard...always blogging. lol jk, i love Gerard. xD

bored as HELL.

hmm-de-de-hmm-hmm....idk wtf to do, but i am STARVING...sooo....i'm gonna go get some food then go get on IMVU. =]

The Wall

So, these are pictures from THE WALL. and other WALLS. but they all go under THE WALL. savvy? lol

yes, my friends and i painted these. =3 and we will keep on painting. xD

oh yeah, one more:

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! (say it Brit Punk style, like that freaky broccoli guy from that Raisins show!)

xD!!!!! WOOTNESS! i have just updated my playlist! and it is awesome. i have added a shitload of MCR, and then 5 songs from the SoS (Sounds of Summer) list - since 4 couldn't be found. i'll post YouTube links laterrrrrrr....

aaaaaannnnd! some fucking FUNNY pictures! and some cute ones too!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!! ohh, this made me crack up so bad...hahahaha!

xD! you have no idea how much i love the artist/creator of miniMCR. this is the funniest series of comics online! ohhhh, so damn funny...

hahahaha! while browsing Google Images for "Young Frankenstein" (which is, btw an AMAZINGLY hilarious movie!) pictures, Olivia and I came across this picture off the Shannon's blog (here on Blogspot too!) hahaha, so the little kid's face is the Shannon baby. lol. "Abby Normal"!

amazingly cute picture of Gerard. =] lol, i've never seen that face before. i wonder what he was doing...O_o lol

AND THE FEATURE PICTURE:

Gerard Way: very young (the site said age 13, but idk)this....is so damn adorable. you have no idea. i mean, i "aww"ed out loud to an empty room...lol. this picture is, by far, one of my favorites of Gerard. xD i wish we had more pictures of the band when they were younger! hahaha, so cuddly. oh, i saw this one pic of Ray when he was like, 8, in a tux. such a serious face. O_O i wonder if it was for a funeral... =\ but let's hope not. lol. and of course there are a few baby pictures floating around. hahaha, the one of Frank is so...Frank. lol. big sunglasses, infamous grin in kid form. hahaha, even then he was mischievous. lol.

so, enough of MCR. not everyone loves them as much as i do (as i'm told by many of my friends...like Sara...who will promptly launch into a fangirl rant on Curt Cobain and how she'd be stalking his son if he had one...you know, at least my guys aren't dead...and i don't wanna stalk them. >_> or their kids. that would be awkward...and Worm would probably smush me. LOL!)

LoVe iS NoT LiKe aNyTh!nG, eSpEc!aLlY A FuCk!Ng kNiFe

hehehe...i like The Used...well, their music. i'm not exactly happy with them right now. >.<

i recently found out from a friend why MCR and The Used never talk anymore. when Gerard was still drinking, he and Bert McCracken (sp?) were drinking buds. but then Gerard got sober and tried to get Bert to get sober too - like any friend would/should. and, i don't know if it took days of coaxing from Gerard or just one statement, but Bert bit Gerard's head off and said he was a pussy for going sober. r_r they say they don't hate each other and they're friends...but they've both been avoiding Warped Tour and never contact each other.

=\ i love The Used, but not Bert. if that makes sense. which it should, because he's not a good friend if he chews someone out about being healthy. >.< i mean, Erik is super healthy and eats freaking rabbit food everyday, and tells me i should too, but i'm not gonna bitch out on his ass about it. *rolls eyes* grrr.

anywho....yeah....

Language Arts Hell

this class sucks. it does.

not the subject, though. the teacher and the students.

now, i'm not saying i'm perfect - hell no. but i am way better than half of them.

and the teacher? jesus christ, she couldn't handle a pair of mute kindergardeners! she really needs to go take some classes on how to handle a class of teens. or just teach elementary kids. really.

i'm very displeased with this year's turn out of teachers for me.

Chemistry: he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. he's been giving us equations to balance that are incorrect, and when i asked for a better understanding on just how deadly and radioactive pure thallium is, he began to ramble on about how OXYGEN is deadly. my theory is that the school is too damn cheap to pay for an actual Chemistry teacher AND a football coach. and this is a fucking science magnet school, god dammit!

Algebra II: she doesn't know how to explain the math in easy terms for us to understand. but other than that she's a great teacher.

10th Grade Lit/Comp: she doesn't know how to handle the students or teach effectively, and so no one knows what the hell they're doing.

the only core classes with decent teachers that i have are Algebra and World History. my other four classes consist of Arabic and 3 art classes (with the same art teacher, since we only have one). so, 1/2 of my absolutely needed classes are for SHIT! i fucking hate this school.

"Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere new"

excactly.

Medicated, I'm Contemplating...

**NOTE: this was posted after class was let out and A lunch was finished**

i'm in Chemistry. been locked in this hell hole for the past two hours (since i arrived 30 min late and i have another 30 min to go). *groans*

anyways, been listening to Sounds of Summer Vol 2 (a free mix CD off the internet that gives you songs from up and coming bands), and my favorites of the moment are:

1. Livin' Th' Dream by You, Me, and Everyone We Know
2. Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace
3. Home Is A Heartache by Honor Bright
4. Medicated by National Product
5. Rock, Shock and Load by Thee Armada
6. Parker by Automatic Loveletter
7. A Certain Kind Of Touch by Breathe Electric
8. Level Of Doubt by Vital Light
9. Where Were You? by Every Avenue

this is a long post, cos i'm gonna post up the lyrics for each of the above songs. so, if one interests you, just scroll to the number. =]

1. Livin' Th' Dream by You, Me, and Everyone We Know

Yesterday I turned twenty-three
The date didn't mean that much to me
Then I started adding figures up in my head
It seems the cost of dreaming has left me in the red.

Because of alcohol I've shared sixteen beds
There's a five year reunion hangin' over my head
At least eleven-thousand people think I'm something I'm not
The courage to let them down isn't something I've still got.

Sometimes I wanna cheat but I don't
I wanna quit but I won't
'Cause I made this bed

Give me a shovel you'll be amazed
At how fast I dig a grave
Baby just, lay in it.

You're only brave 'til you're scared
You're only unique until compared
To every other worthless fuck trying to
Crawl into bed tonight.

You can't afford to live like this (Yes we can, yes we can)
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big (Yes we can, yes we can)
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet, you know I'm only getting started.

You can't afford to live like this
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big.
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet.

You can't afford to live like this (Yes we can, yes we can)
You can't be dumb enough to dream so big (Yes we can, yes we can)
Yeah we'll sail through the sleazy seas
Past all the casting couches, rug burned knees
No I'm not done yet, you know I'm only getting started.

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2. Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace

With so little sleep
At least you'd think I'd find some peace in my dreams
In my dreams
But my mind still winds up on the same thing
The same scene
The same themes

Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious
Built up from every day
So I'm stuck with these nightmares
Where you're gone and so far away

And when I wake up
I realize that everything's still wrong
I'm still here and you're still gone
It's not fair
Cause either way I spin it
Separation seems so wrong
These breaks are far too long for me

Hours and hours
I'm stuck inside this place and this town
And you're gone
Far away, you're fighting for your life all alone
I want to wake up and go home

Cause it's all stuck in my subconscious
Built up from every day
So I'm stuck with these nightmares
Where you're gone and far away

Oh, this tortures me so much that
I get sick and I throw up
In my dream and here on my bed
It's messed up how it's all in my head
Yet it's affecting me oh so bad
I guess this distance just makes me sick

Cause when I wake up
It's 4 AM and I'm still all alone
Your message on my phone
Don't tell me that sleeping through the night
Is never this hard when you're home
Cause I already know

Wake me

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3. Home Is A Heartache by Honor Bright

Last night I said too much but your still
Here so I'm doing something right.
So can I apologize?
I'll make this up to you somehow. {x2}

This time I, I made a mistake
I'm man enough to admit
I wrong this time. With loaded
Eyes baby you look beautiful tonight.
(Don't Gamble with my heart)

Have you heard anything about me?
You can see it in my eyes
Be better off alone
I'll get over this just
Give it time. You know I'll
Comeback to you, always
Comeback to you.

Been dying to tell you I've been
Yours since day one.{x2}

If distance makes the heart grow
Stronger. You'll never
lose me when I am gone.
(Lose me when i am gone){x2}

With loaded
Eyes baby you look beautiful tonight.
Have you heard anything about me?
You can see it in my eyes
Be better off alone
I'll get over this just
Give it time. You know I'll
Comeback to you, always
Comeback to you back to you.
(GO! )

I hate it when this home
Becomes a heartache.
I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful tonight.)

I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful
Tonight comeback to you){x2}
I hate it when this home
(With loaded eyes)
Becomes a heartache.
(Baby you look beautiful tonight.)

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4. Medicated by National Product

I lie awake for days end
Black satin above
And nice blood red sheets
I've tried but to no success
Can I close my eyes
And get some rest

And he said
It'll be alright
If you just learn to close your eyes
It's not the taste you're gonna like
It's the feeling that you get
When you start to forget and you're

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

And I'd love to wake up with myself
Maybe that will creep me out enough
To see who the hell I really am

Sometimes I forget
And you can bet that I'm

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

And maybe this will help me
Get some rest
And maybe she will help me
Sleep a little better
And maybe he will help me
Think a little clearer now
And maybe this isn't what is best
Maybe this is what the doctor ordered
So I'll have another

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

Medicated, I'm contemplating
Packing it up
And going somewhere else
They'll never call out
My name and
Somewhere far
Where I don't think they care much there

Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
Medicated
Medicated
Where I don't think they care much there
And I don't think they care much there

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5. Rock, Shock and Load by Thee Armada

his is a story about some boys from Texas!
Who know how to get down
And you know we'll be the life of the party
So lets get this started now

The stories we would say when we were young
believing everything would be okay
Fighting off those whose who said we were wrong
we're gonna make it some day
And no matter where we go
you hear them singing
ROCK, SHOCK AND LOAD!

This is How we do it where we come from
Just get into it (HEY!)
Or move along

Iv'e got two barrels full with six shots each
Only the finest at my side
weather is hot as hades, like our southern ladies
where everythings bigger and everything lasts all night
we get down until the sun comes up!

ROCK,SHOCK AND LOAD!

This is How we do it where we come from
Just get into it (HEY!)
Or move along
Just move along
oh move along
Just move along
move along

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6. Parker by Automatic Loveletter

I was your fire once
you thought of me as your one true love
i got so mad
said things that later I would regret and regret and regret
holding onto my chest and pounding till it turns purple
a breaking bow and the sound of a scream muffled by pillows
so dont so long
and dont farewell
hear me out now i've just begun to say

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure given shame of my own
that you dont..
remember

sworn off blue lips
kiss them warm
with love comes deep dark red
and paper cuts
from letters i re-write explaining how to fall in love
well pictures inspire and songs never tire
and there's always clouds to float upon
saving me best for last
down for keeps up for grabs
we'll play stop and go
but it feels just like freeze tag
so ill see you right
applaud and encore
ill be braver just you wait here till i say

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure shame of my own

im naked once so dont think twice
hold on
its hard enough to bite my shy
hold on
hold on
hold tight

Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
Parker
do you remember
how i carried your heart
and i carried it far
and i know
that theres no one to blame
its a sure given shame of my own
of my own
of my own
its a sure shame of my own
that you dont that you wont remember

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7. A Certain Kind Of Touch by Breathe Electric

We've gotta get out of this place, she said
and fallow our hearts to content, she said
i want it all, but there's nothing you can do to stop me
and oh my god, they said in wonderment
oh my god, the way you look tonight
and this could be the way for us to change
this could be, this could be
the way for us to change

i can feel my breath growing faster
i think this could be the right time

let's call out all our fears right now
and open hearts with clear content
we know, it's all about the way it comes out
of your mouth and mind
and oh my god, i think it's happening
oh my god, the way you look tonight
and this could be the way for us to change

i need you more now, than ever
this could be the right time to change

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8. Level Of Doubt by Vital Light

(none could be found easliy - will post later)

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9. Where Were You? by Every Avenue

Home for the weekend,
Looking for a good time;
Of all the numbers you end up calling mine.
Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot.
I should know better than to
Give her what she wants.
I picked her up and she was three-forths gone.
She passed out before we even got to talk.
All I want to know is:

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.
Down!

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround,
Just forget it, just forget it.

sooooooooo bored

what the title says man. ain't nuthin to do really. >.<

RE: This Is Why You're Fat... posted by Ray on Mar 14, 2009 5:37pm

Mikey Way and Bob Bryar stumbled across this gem of a site. I think I've eaten about 30% of this stuff...
http://thisiswhyyourefat.com/

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! go there and look at the nastyness! *barfs*

yet....a few things look good.... r_r

Rapist House

ok, so, my friend Olivia lives in an apartment complex. one night, like a month or so ago, she was talking to me on FB (Facebook) Chat and told me that this guy was lurking outside the complex, WATCHING them like a super creeper, really sketchy. they called the cops, but they didn't really do anything, just told the kids to stay inside. (wtf, dude, what if he breaks in? what then bitch?!)

then, last week, i was at her house playing outside when the boys (her brothers and their guy friends) came up to Olivia, Alyvia and me and pointed out this really sketchy guy sitting IN the bushes - not behind, IN - eating McDonald's and watching us all (the complex is next door to a McD's). he was white, wearing a light blue shirt, and chubby. and he sat there eating - or "eating" - for at least one hour.

and just the other day, Thursday, Olivia and I walked to the Walgreene's near her house. on the walk back, we saw a pair of neon pink CHILD'S PANTIES on the drive way of this half-boarded up abandoned house. that was sketchy as it was. but then, we saw a white, chubby man wearing a black shirt just walk right through the gate that said, quite clearly, NO TRESPASSING and go into the house. now, this house looks like, death lives in their in the form of mold and rotting wood. so this guy isn't living there or lives there illegally. but the guy looked like the creeper in the bushes, and now i'm freaked out.

maybe i'm overreacting, but what if it's the creeper watching them at night? what if all three incidents are from the same guy? what if he's a fucking rapist?! there were a little girl's panties on the driveway! who drops underwear?! never before, in my entire life living in this big city and going through not so nice places of town, have i seen a pair of girl's panties. and they were like, what an 8 yr old would wear.

so maybe i'm freaking too much. but i'm scared for Livie.

i'm going to be watching that house and that guy carefully from now on. i'm so ready to call the cops. fucking creepers.

O_O

my blog is fucked...my dashboard (the home page for when i log on) said 51 posts, meaning this is the 52nd. yet, i had 47 on the blog page itself, so this is the 48th. WTF.

50!!!!

HERE'S THE 50th ENTRY! =3

uhmmmmmmmmm........

idk what to blog...but i wanted to, so here. lol

oh...my....god....

i feel horrible. i've been spelling Alyvia's name wrong this whole time....sorry guh. T-T

RE: Hard at work... posted by Ray on Mar 12, 2009 7:37pm

If you ever wondered where sheer musical genius begins and ends, its right here folks. This here is the board, where all our ideas, songs, intros, outros, and everything else related to writing music gets catalogued. What the average person sees is a collection of pictographs that take the shape of dogs, Boozeys, and Punch-Out characters. What our eyes see is well beyond your comprehension. See Piggy's left eye there? That's actually the chord progression to the best chorus you've ever heard. Don Flamenco's eyebrows? Insane verse riff. Boozey's projectile vomit? You don't even know how good that part is. My Chemical Romance. Hard at work...

WTF?! i can't tell if you're yanking our chain or not. r_r but that certainly is an interesting colletion of drawings. i wonder who all drew them...i think Gerard drew the creeper next to the dog? idk....O_O

RE: Practice-Cam posted by Mikey on Mar 11, 2009 7:43pm

Welcome to practice-cam. We will periodically post "exclusive shots" from live inside our "secret headquarters". Here's Ray Toro ladies and gentlemen!- mid-riff. For everyone keeping score at home, that there Strat was once owned by Mr. Jimi Hendrix.

WHAT?! Ray Toro you are one lucky ass bitch! Hendrix was like, THE coolest guitarist of his day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't believe you have his fucking guitar! thank you Mikey, for giving me another reason to envy you guys, besides the hot emo chicks all after you. lol, jk.

but DAYUM.

SHIIIIIIT

so, in school once again, but this time in Arabic. just finished my Arabic midterm. i know i failed. r_r gayyyy.

anyways, been listening to Green Day this whole time, and it makes me feel better. x]

i wish my Arabic teacher would just chill the eff out. he's getting worse each day, and like, always biting my head off. ME. why?! i sit there quietly and - even if i don't understand or zone out - i'm not being a distraction like half the class that never gets reprimanded! and they do as bad a job as i do! so gay. >.<

he's grading the tests right now. ~*rolls eyes*~ he'll call me up to make me watch him correct it, but i already know i failed. i don't need to watch it in a replay. jesus.

Austin is trying to sit on me....LOL

blah....what else to talk about....erm....hummmm....oh i def need more music in my playlist. more of MCR, MSI, Sixx: A.M. and that good stuff. x]

so, my mom's on Facebook now, and apparently so is Alex Grey (Gray? idk). and i have 22 or 24 friends on Facebook cos i deleted everyone who doesn't talk to me on there. still considering deleting more. i haven't even dared to face my MySpace page in at LEAST a month. i don't like MySpace. they have too much shit all over the place. so annoying. plus i'm pissed i know nothing about HTML so i can't pimp my shit. lol

grrrr, half this class annoys the shit outta me. mainly guys. and it doesn't help i am the ONLY Center for the Arts kid in here. >.< gay as hell.

blahblahblahblahblahblahblah

i hate all these sites that we're denied access to. maybe PPP (PotterPuppetPals.com) isn't blocked, that would be awesome.

anyways, end of entry.

Pranks and Practical Jokes Needed!

Once again, in World History typing up a blog entry. lol.

today, and tomorrow, and everyday from now on, i really NEED some good (BUT HARMLESS!) pranks and practical jokes! i've already got a few dealing with fake cum (made from a mixture of flour and egg whites), like filling a squirt gun with it and shooting someone in the face (LOL) or buying condoms and filling them with the fake cum and bombing people or letting them sit on one.

so i need lots of funny pranks and practical jokes that are, i said before, TOTALLY HARMLESS. nothing permanent, like acrylic paint or sharpie on clothing (skin is fine since it will come off), or anything that might make too huge a mess. because i don't know enough of these fun things. and try make sure it's nothing that will totally embarrass someone, or drive them to tears. =\ that wouldn't be cool.

GIMME DEM PRANKS YO!

"Nighty night..." said Filch in his creepy ass voice

yes, ahem, Harry Potter on the mind. x3 anyways, nite nite. joining my beloved in my dreams soon.

and, speaking of, i'd like to inform everyone of a surprise...SOMETHING...i shall be producing soon. i'm really hoping it will turn out gorgeous. xD

Gerard smoking header

i just realized how well that picture of him fits on my blog. lol. "KITTEN CUB'S OPINION" above his head and then Gerard smoking calmly away and holding Starbucks (yum!) like, "what? just read, muthafucka" LOL! yes.

and, i'm adding the picture here, just in case i have changed the header when people come rifling through the old posts. lol. RIFLE AWAY DEARIES! lawlz

At SKEWL

So, i'm sitting here at school. =\ but hey, interwebbing! i'm surprised and very gleeful i can actually get on to Blogger without using a proxy. it makes me happy, even though no one besides Ash really reads this. T-T

anyhoo, in World History with Mr. Purnell (i can't remember if it's two "L"s or one...) and we were just reviewing for midterms. YUCK! ~*head-desk*~ i'm so glad i know all this stuff. history is fun if you can add in all the interesting facts. like...

did you know that Mary Shelly (sp?), the writer of Frankenstein, made that book out of a competition between her husband and their male friend? and did you also know that Mary, her husband and that friend were regular threesome lovers? interesting fun stuff!

so, yeah, history is really fun.

i have like, a few more minutes before class ends...and then i have lunch with Olivia!!!! YAY! but i'm so damn tired. i HATE spring daylight savings time. fall is AWESOME (one extra hour of sleep). who came up with these crazy rules anyways?! and why?!

uhhmmm....what else to talk about...oh i have set design later today. =3 i LURVE my art classes. i wonder if you can take online courses for health....because if i did that and pass my arabic class i can have FOUR art classes next year!!!!! YES! and if i take more online classes for my core classes (english, math, history, and science) then i can get even MORE art classes! xD i love the internet.

Mikey and Rorschach

I really like this picture! but Mikey looks not so good (in the sense that he's sick). appearance wise, i will quote a comment on his Twitter: he is a classy kind of sassy. LOL.

so if he's sick i hope he feels better!!!!

New Header pic

i LOVE that series of pictures. it's very serene and yet very Gerard. =]

but yeah, new header. if i had HTML knowledge this place would be PIIIIIIIMPED. but, alas, i don't. lol

WHAAAAAAAAAAT?!

i was looking up some Umbrella Academy stuff when, low and behold, i stumbled across this site: http://www.veidt.com/?p=373

AND WHAT IS THIS I HEAR?! The Umbrella Academy is getting adapted into a movie?! HOW FUCKING SWEET IS THAT?! and from this picture (i THINK it's from something else, but maybe not) it looks like they're considering Natalie Portman for the White Violin!!!! HOW FREAKING AWESOME?!

anyways, that's my random happiness about Umbrella Academy. might have more today. lol.

WATCHMEN!!!!!!!!!

That movie is fucking sexy. and that is all i'm saying, in case anyone hasn't seen it!

Watchmen Yo!

hahahahahaham i'm going to go see Watchmen tomorrow! xD totally awesomesauce. 

i will give a rating tomorrow after i see it. xD SO awesome. >w<

ALL IS FULL OF LOVE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjAoBKagWQA

Nobody Likes You, Everyone Left You, They're All Out Without You, HAVING FUN.

boy, do i feel that line from Letterbomb by Green Day.

"where have all the riots gone?" really! what happened to the riots against anti-gay laws! why don't we have anyone here to rally people together?! we have no more love! what happened to the sixties, with the riots and the peace marches? did we forget Martin Luther King, Jr. that fast? did we forget the kids in Tiananmen Square? we're letting the world die without batting an eyelash, drowning ourselves in the bullshit of Hollywood and stupid things. i can't remember the last time i actually spent an hour or two watching the news; i can't remember the last time they had something relevant and news worthy on the news. how sad it that?

why do people ignore the things that should be seen? we ignore feelings and allow nothing but negativity to color our worlds. ~*head-desk*~ sometimes i srsly hate the world

okay, wtf? didn't work....

http://www.mychemicalromance.com/product/limited-edition-venganza-vest-and-usb&cmpid=0309/MCR/featured/mainsite/venganza/image

lucky bastards you guys are. i had to type the link up since the Mac i'm on fucked up and refused to paste INSIDE the text box. >_>

For those who want to pre-order the aforementioned AMAZING vest:

WHAT THE FRANK?! OH MY GERARD!!

DO YOU SEE THIS SHIT?! this has got to be the most amazing vest ever! and, NO, not just because it's MCR. really! a bulletproof-esque vest with REVENGE and guns on the back, and a bullet shaped USB drive?! SO EFFING AWESOME!!!! not to mention all the concert footage and pics ON the USB drive! i swear, i'm going to beg on my hands and knees for this. no joke. 

YOU SHOULD ALWAYS

KEEP THE FAITH.

no matter what it is. i don't know exactly what Frank Iero means by such, but my interpretation of it is believe, in whatever you believe, absolutely. you can say that the negative things (such as neo-Nazis and the KKK) are not things you should keep the faith in, but i'm sure they believe they are the positive thinkers.

everything we hold as belief - instead of proven fact - in this world is in the eye of the beholder. beauty, love, hate, anger, what is right, what is wrong.

urgh

freaking 1:30 am. ~*head-desk*~ and too bored to sleep. wtf is up with that?!

oh, i just finished reading this story where the main character has Asberger's Syndrome (AS for short). does anyone know exactly what that is? i have a very vague idea from the story; you basically act extremely childish, because your mind is stuck in a child mind set. but i want to know more. 

i really look up to people with mental handicaps who overcome said disability. i look up to regular people who overcome anything hard to beat. like Gerard Way's drinking problems. Nikki Sixx's heroin addiction. and those are just two famous people. there are dozens more celebrities, and hundreds-thousands more regular people. 

=]

All Alone

i'm all alone online. =\ if there are ANY ghost readers out there PLEASE talk to me. i'm so damn bored.

Fun Day...sorta

well, today was okay. spent a lot of time with Olivia and Aylivia at Olivia's house. haha, when Aylivia comes to high school i'm gonna have to start calling them O and A, since they both answer to Liv and Livie. lawlz.

also, Watchmen came out. lots of people are RAVING about it. i hope i can when i see it. xD but i trust MCR to know that it was damn awesome. lol

well, right now that's all. =\ ttyl? lol

Crying

i'm crying my eyes out right now. it's 11:18PM EST, and i had a fight with my mom. it was stupid and escalated way too far.

but that doesn't change the fact that it hurt and i really need to find a way out of this place.

Video one (TURN IT UP LOUD)

VIDS?!

yes! videos! i'll be posting some pretty damn soon. =]

NO EFFING WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have JUST GOTTEN MY CUSTOM X-HI CONVERSE!!!!!!!!!! ~*screams*~ oh yeah, they are BADASS.

want pics? ok, here you go:

Who Am I Talking To?

while sitting on the bus this afternoon, i was pondering many a thing, and some how came to the conclusion that, in writing my blog, i feel as if i'm talking to my BFF Olivia. why? because she very often doesn't talk. and no one hardly comments - or even reads - my blog. so i sorta feel like i'm talking to Olivia. lol

Sexuality Labels

It has been brought to my attention by an anonymous reader - and a friend of mine - that I'm labeling myself in my about section when I state that I am bi.

I would like to clarify things a bit.

I state such openly not because I'm labeling myself or, as my mother says repeatedly, "making myself more different than I already am." I'm upfront about it because I refuse to have homophobic friends. I do love having straight and gay friends to debate sexuality with. But homphobes are not my slice of cake.

And also, I truly am bisexual. I find both women and men sexually attractive, and would date a girl. I haven't but that's cos I live in a city where not many bisexual or lesbian girls can be found in high school. But I digress.

So, in conclusion, I am not labeling myself, I'm not faking, or whatever. I am bisexual and PROUD.

....Now where's that damn rainbow flag....? lol

MCR Madness 2

ok....anyone reading this, i need ideas. if you have ANY ideas as to what i can draw/paint/make for MCR, PLEASE leave a comment. it's open to non-users as well, so all my friends is send here COMMENT OR I'LL KILL YA!

PLEASE. i'm so braindead!

MCR Madness

SO! i am starting on some art projects to send to MCR. so far i have a lightbulb tranformed into awesomeness! here's a couple pics:

this is gonna be for Gerard. =] i know he'll like it. tho...anyone got any ideas on a prettier bottom than just the swirly thing for the bottom/top?

RE: the saaanch found my friend singing jonas brothers!!! posted by Bob on Mar 01, 2009 5:48pm

yesssssssssssssssssss
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CWDN5cC7-NE

Bob Bryar...i don't know what to say. horrible singing, but that kid is so funny and cute.

and once again, YES RAY. he DOES look like you.
btw - doesn't Ray look very nice with glasses? i think so. but maybe that's cos i have a thing for glasses. lol. =[ i miss Mikey's.

mmm food

mmmm, couscous and mushrooms! portabella of course.

note of interest: white button mushrooms eaten raw gives you a lot of anti-oxidants. keep yourself wrinkle free with yummy food! and go find more yummy healthy food.

unfortunately, we'll all die of McDonald's. lol. at least i'll die happy! xD

so i went out today and had some fun with Olivia. here are three pics:

Me and my BFF Olivia. =]

Olivia

Me!

More snow

i'm gonna keep updating as the day goes on. this snow is unstoppable it seems and i'm fucking overjoyed about that. =] Atlanta never sees this stuff.

the pic is a shot from my apartment's balcony. xD

in other news....wait, i have no other news. lol

IT'S FUCKING SNOWING!

DUDE! it's snowing here in Atlanta! xD and it's getting thicker and thicker. no joke. like....O_O

on another note, i hope everyone loves the playlist. unlike my boyfriend, Ashton ( http://deadlygadgetforlife.blogspot.com ), you can see it and change the song. =] it's all the way at the bottom, so go check it out my luvverly non-readers!

night time

everything is so quiet and boring at night when you're at home on the computer. -_- i need parties and concerts. bah. ~*head-desk*~